It's Monday night 01/26/15 I am all over the place today. Beating myself up from " acting out" in a addiction yesterday again. I am mad at myself in looking back . The stress disorder was building up in me yesterday and rather than use new tools I had learned in emtional frredom tech I failed to use those tools and gave into cruising for lust again. Then tonight I get someone angry at me because I forgot to write down a message to pass on to a co worker now this is another triggering event to get me emtionally upset again. I am using my eft tapping skills to try to bring that building inner distress down. On a scale from 1 to 10 ten being the highest that emtional distress is around 8 and its building again tknight. Thank god I am not raging on anybody . Just a lot of fear and anxiety. Afaid of rejection or not getting this guy at work approval. . I made a mistake. Mistakes are for learning. But some people especially in a work setting don't see it that way.