Proactive (cont.)

[Daylightsaving]

I'm feeling sad and tired today after spending Sunday and Monday helping clear out cupboards in my mother in laws house, talking with the celebrant and shopping for funeral clothes on Saturday. It's the funeral tomorrow.I feel like my life's been on hold since the beginning of the year and my own plans have slipped down the list. It feels selfish to talk in this way but my life is dogged by death so if I don't press on despite this, I will never accomplish anything.

There are some things on my list for this year that are time specific like signing on for a course I'm interested in and getting some work done in the house but I feel stuck just now. I know that taking good care of myself and my own needs will get me unstuck. Asking for help always helps too. Though yesterday I did go out for sandwiches to make sure I eat at lunchtime and have been trying to walk more since my holiday, my current goal is 2000 steps a day. So I have been keeping on track in small ways.

[BrainIsFull]

I’m sorry that it’s so tough right now. Facing death multiple times has got to take it’s toll.

It’s good that you are focussing on caring for yourself! It’s really necessary in order for us to feel better!

[1949liz]

i’m also so sorry for your loss, be gentle with yourself it’s so important. Somebody said that to me when my dad died so I pass it on to you be gentle with yourself God bless Liz.

[gettingsomewhere]

Thinking of you today Daylightsaving.

[Dolphin14 Moderator]

You will get through this grieving period and be able to tackle your list.

Take things one step at a time. Getting through today is going to be tough.

My thoughts are with you and your family

❤️🐬

[Daylightsaving]

So, it was the Funeral on Wednesday just gone and it went really well. Relations with my in laws have improved a bit but still frosty. Husband has gone to help clear stuff at the house but I stayed home today as we have visitors tomorrow and I felt really tired. I've done a bit of tidying and some washing and feel better for it. We had a nice brunch before he went which was lovely. We are going for lunch next Wednesday for the brother who lives abroad's birthday so we'll see how things are then. To be honest it's similar to how it's always been so we'll get through it. I knew my mother in law for 43 years and though she never really took much interest in me or my family, when we visited her, she was welcoming and generous. I don't have any negative feelings left, it was what it was and now it's over.