I joined here a few months ago. I felt at the time that I had symptoms of ptsd. Since then I've seen my Dr and told him everything from my abusive husband to how do I cope alone.
Well, the moment finally arrived yesterday. My husband pushed it too far and I snapped. It was horrible. I felt like I was reliving the whole experience of ten years ago when he became I'll with ms and started to get abusive. I blame myself for staying with him for all the abuse my children have taken from him and not just mental. I feel like the world has crashed around me. Right now I want to go and curl up in bed and not wake up. I feel so alone and panicked. I need to know where to start. Divorce etc. Trek me im not alone!