Dealing with PTSD for 50+ years, I thought I was beyond dissociative states. In 2010, a police officer's violent outburst left me entirely ignorant of what happened. Witnesses attributed my broken shoulder, ripped rotator cuff to the cop slamming me into a wall. Video supported witness' accounts but I could not remember what happened after LEO raised his voice. (Camera stopped recording video, while audio continued recording).
Involved in the prosecution of a serial pedophile, while filing a report, the police and District Attorney were present. Uncomfortable in a cramped room with four unknown adults staring at me, I requested a change in seating so that each person was within my field of vision (i.e.: not behind me). The Deputy snapped at me to pay attention to the Lt. questioning me and I do not know where I "went" but I complied ~ becoming a four year old scared child again! Four hours later, I have no idea what I may have told them and the recording is not available to me.
Finally, in the above investigation, the Sheriff got angry at me and in front of two reporters, moved aggressively toward me with a red and angry face. I "left" and a friend took my arm and led me out of the building. I had no idea what was going on and thought my friend was acting strange. I do not know why he was angry. The reporters were so frightened they didn't record the audio but caught his behavior on video.
It's been so long since dissociation was a problem, I'd quit paying attention to situations that may trigger splitting but now that I am aware of the problem my old solutions do not work. I NEED to remain present while dealing with some rather serious challenges (law enforcement involved) and knowing angry, uniformed, male, law enforcement triggered the last three dissociative episodes, what can I do to stay in the moment?