Hello all
Just to update on my journey to take the man who sexually abused me to court. It has taken 3 years 2 police statements lots of painful memories and nightmares but my case is going to court.!!!!!
I had support from a wonderful psycologist who waited whilst a gave my statement which was recorded. I told my experience and gave as much detail as i could.
I give my evidence via video link next year and i am TERRIFIED. I have heard that the process of cross examination is BRUTAL.
I am so anxious that i think daily about what could happen if he still walks free. After the pain and trauma he inflicted on me as a child he should be locked up.
I have a grown up daughter 28 who wants to come with me, i do not want her to see me so upset.
I have not told her the things that he did and i still feel misplaced shame. I also feel a responsibility to other survivors of child sexual abuse to do my best. Will the jury believe me ? Will i be strong enough ? How much back lash do i expect from going through the details.? I had horeendous flashbacks,body memories and nightmares giving the statements.
I am so grateful that i have managed to get it to court so afraid that after everything i have done it wont be enough. I am frightened of what that could do to me.
Has anyone any advice please ?