I have been following Michelle's blog & radio programs for a few months. I have come to understand my symptoms as a brain disorder from trauma rather than the shame & gult I experienced growing up in an abusive dysfunctional family where I was sexually abused starting when I was around 4. When I started my healing journey 20 years ago there was no internet to google help. All I received was talk therapy that took off some of the pressure, but never resolved the brain trauma issues. I'm 62 now and finally can see some light at the end of the tunnel, but still struggle with body numbing, adrenalin surges at night & dissociation when triggered. I practise meditations, breathe work and have tried to experience somatic recovery with Peter Levine's exercises. I don't know how to quiet the adrenalin surges I experience at night. The surges wake me up sometimes with a body startle. I was abused during the night. Could this be a vagus nerve response?