Hi everyone. Its been a while since I updated on how things have changed due to my Brothets wife leaving him. For those who dont know he fell down 4 stairs 5 yrs ago & broke his neck. 3 ops later he was left paralysed from the neck down.
My Brothers wife left him 4/5 wks ago. His carers have even said they see a difference in him, its like he's happier now as though the stress has left him.
Mum & I take our turns at looking after him. Mum doing more than me. I did go & stay with him for 10 days while my son was on holiday & to give Mum a much needed break. However, half way into my time there I took a Fibro flare. All he does is watch any type of sport he can. After a while the noise was grating on me & I was becoming very grump, snapling at him & in so much pain. I took to bed sometimes oversleeping meal times. I must have looked bad on Friday cos my Mum called in & said to me privately she thkught I should go home because I need to take care of myself aswell. I told my Brother kn Friday night I was going home the next afternoon & he said "Thank you for being here, I know its hard for you too having Fibro even though I dont understand it" That gave me such a lump in my throat.
On Saturday afternoon upon closing his door I felt so bad. I felt like I was leaving him & cried driving down home.
I have been suffering with pain & IBS. Now I am feeling very low & cant stop crying. I know the advice will be speak to your Dr. I really dont want to coz there is not much they can do as I am already on a higher dose of anti depressants than a GP is allowed to prescribe. I am on my dose because I was seen & prescribed by a Physciatrist.
I've cried all day. I feel so down & in so much pain. I dont want to tell my Mum as I dont want her to worry about me. I txt my friend today & told her but no reply. I txt my cousins who replied with I know its hard.
I dunno am I looking sympathy or do I need help. I dont want to go on any more. This is not a life. Like my Brother we are just existing!