Morning
I'm off to my clinic today for my ERA/ALICE/EMMA tests after a FER cycle. It just feels so strange having taken all the meds and heading to the clinic but without an embryo transfer at the end of it all. Its just so demotivating, although I know it will be worth it in the long run.
Usually in a cycle you do everything possible to make sure its the best cycle for success but this time there's no prize at the end - or potential...
And talking about meds, my consultant really wanted to push me to get my lining over 8mm, so he's thrown everything at it - I'm on maximum progynova, aspirin, viagra and im running out of places on my body to stick patches. But at my last scan I was only 7.19mm so the worst I've ever done. It doesnt really matter for this cycle though as it will just be a biopsy.
It does feel like Ive conducted my own little clinical trial though. Usually for an FET attempt I do loads of extra things like accupuncture, beetroot juice, pomegranate, brazil nuts, raspberry leaf tea, hot water bottles, long walks etc etc etc etc. But I just havent had the heart for it this time around. And if anything it just shows that my lining is better when I do all those things on top of the meds.
Anyway, I just wanted to acknowledge to myself that I'm not ok today, this feels weird. And thats ok too. To anyone else out there whose going through the same thing, I hear you!
On the plus side, after today - NO MORE PROGESTERONE PESSARIES!!!