This journey is so tough...

[Jessy1280]

Starting cycle 2 25th September and I'm terrified of failure again. It's costing so much which is added stress. I'm so scared it'll fail again.

I'm literally on every supplement under the sun... My ova, inofolic, dhea, high strength vitamin D and c, folic acid, pregnacare, coq10, omega 3. Due to start melatonin too. I've read it starts with the egg. I've stopped drinking Pepsi max and eating massive amounts of chocolate éclairs sweets daily all together. I'm now on salads every day.

Last time I took folic acid only here and there. I have high amh with no underlying cause. I got 18 eggs last time, 16 mature 13 fertilised but only 3 made it to day 5. This was on long protocol, got ohss and a failed FET in August.

This time I'm going to be on antagonist (short) to avoid ohss, improve quality but yet I'm still so scared and anxious. I cry most days. I feel like it's never going to happen for me.

[Core]

This journey is so had and I think a big part is a numbers game! My doctor has always said with each attempt you have a better chance so 🤞 2nd round will be the one for you xx

[Italy300618]

Hi there

Wow you have really made some great changes for this cycle! You so deserve this! You're going into this as prepared as you can be ...and some! So you cant say you didnt give it your all!

We have just had a failed cycle (1st round) and we are devastated. Like you, I too have now bought the book, it starts with the egg, just for my piece of mind..even though I thought I did enough last time.. that you are in control of some things.

Sounds like you've done amazing, and as stressful as it is you've got to keep going as you didnt come this far not to!

Wishing you lots of luck xxx

[Violet1987]

I can relate to this post as I am very scared to begin our third cycle.

If it’s any consolation Our second cycle was better than our first and we did manage to get pregnant - sadly I did miscarry.

You sound like you are doing really good with diet and supplements. I wish you so much luck on 25th September x

[Hidden]

Completely feel your pain. A week after our first failed icsi and i am struggling. Went for a drink last night and a heavily pregnant lady sat right next to us, we ended up getting dragged into a convo about every detail of their exciting pregnancy. We had to make a quick exit since i lost control and was so upset. I am trying to tell myself that 2nd time will be the one but also struggling to convince myself. Booking our follow up tomorrow. Its sk hard to pick yourself back up but rest assured you are not alone and remember lits of people are successful after a failed. I just need to take my own advice!! Xx

[Katbaby19]

Good luck, it took us 2 cycles and the 3rd transfer to get our positive so in hope you will get yours soon! Lots of changes should help with this round, I did similar changes and I got much better embryos 2nd round. Good luck and know that u need to go through this to get the result you want, keep picturing that baby and it will all be worth it xox

[Jessy1280 in reply to Katbaby19]

Thank you. I sincerely hope cycle 2 works. Don't think my mental state can take much more. I've got two good embies in the freezer but as my 3 cycles have to be used within a year, I'm trying to bank as many as I can x

[Bistbee]

Sending you lots of luck for your second cycle, you’ve made so many amazingly positive changes to take back control of the aspects you can. Hopefully this will give you peace of mind and resilience to deal with the bits of the process we just can’t control, you know you’re doing everything the best you can be so really hoping luck is with you as well 🤞🏻🍍

[Manu16]

This is such a hard process, u need to always remember how hard u are trying. I’m starting my first cycle this week and I feel very anxious. But I know I’m doing everything I can and that’s all I can do. We are all so incredibly brave. Be kind to yourself, it will all work out. Good luck xx

[Picalilli99]

Hi Jessy. I just wanted to say good luck with your second cycle. The fear is such a horrible feeling. But you have to try to believe that it will work for you. It sounds like you have a good plan with a new protocol which is great and you are doing everything you can. Do try to be kind to yourself. We are starting our next cycle around a similar time (should start stimming this weekend). Take care xx