So today my BFN was confirmed with a blood test at hospital.
This was our first cycle, using ICSI (owing to my age, 39, and my husband having had testicular cancer and chemotherapy).
We're both feeling devastated - despite being given a whopping 10% chance of it working, I'd secretly got my hopes up.
My Nana always taught me to count my blessings. Here goes!
- I'm currently in my first hot bath in over a month.
- I've eaten a creme egg this afternoon, with a cup of delicious caffeinated tea.
- No more waxy bullets up my bum three times a day.
- I can sleep with my husband again!
- On Friday, after work, I'm going to get drunk - not sure whether to go for vodka or wine. Maybe both!
- After working hard to lose weight before the treatment started, I no longer have to use 400 calories a day on a pint of blue milk.
- We are hopeful of being offered a second cycle before I turn 40 in November.
Ok - most of these are small victories. But they are positives none the less.
Lots of love to anyone else who has recently seen the single blue line of disappointment x