I have been reading quite a bit about 'the rescuer personality' over the past few months. I have started to wonder whether that was or is me. A 'rescuer' comes to the aid of others emotionally, however, for a reason, to satisfy a 'need', in him or herself. He or she needs to be needed. Ultimately, the rescuer realises that it is he or she that needs to be rescued. .
After a year and a half of councelling, I feel as if I have just about started on a new path. Through councelling I have talked about bad times in my past and feel as though there is healing starting to take place or perhaps that I am touching the healing and perhaps something is moving.
For lack of an exact word for how I feel, I feel a certain apprehension,, unsureness about how things will go however I also feel that there is or might be, somewhere, the strength in me to handle things or be able to deal with things.
I learnt something from an article that I got on a course called 'anger without agression' which reads something like this. If you are trying to work out how you feel about something, ask yourself ' what am I afraid of?'. For example, I am afraid of councelling because I might come to talk about or am confronted by parts of my past that hold difficult emotions.
I wish everyone all the best.
lots of Love,
Marcus xxx .