I haven't written anything for a number of weeks since i wasn't sure what to write. I now have a gentle desire to say or write things. I feel a desire or subtle urge to say or write things. By things I mean write about things that I have experienced.
I have suffered from anxiety for many years and from panic attacks for around a year. I have had councelling for around a year and a half, and will continue with it, and take citralopram 10mg and also keep an emotional diary.
The thing that has just come up(in my mind, so to speak) , is the time that I asked my then girlfriend(2001) to marry me. She said 'yes', however, when I subsequently asked her if she was happy she said ' I think so'. Something in me heard her say, ' I am not sure', rather than the 'I think so'. The relationship finished a few months later.
I feel as if this is a topic that I have not talked about much, however I do now feel a sense of relief or opening up or perhaps getting in touch with or acceptance that the topic is there.
lots of love and big hugs to you all,