I have not been to the doctor about this but have found my symptoms getting worse so have gone online to research and only recently found out what I have been suffering is actually anxiety. It was kind of a relief to know that it is actually a thing as I didn't really know what was happening. I have had a few panic attacks but I didn't actually know what they were so they were quite scary at the time, feeling like I was going to die, sweaty hands and feet, racing heart,major feelings of doom and thinking all sorts of awful thoughts.
I've noticed that it has been getting worse as I'm getting older. The first time I had feelings of doom and worry were about ten years or so ago when I had a hangover. Hangovers make it worse, much worse!
I find one of the things I think about is all of the horrible things that go on in the world and that are happening right now, how can anyone be happy when there is so much awful stuff going on and people are so cruel to others and to animals. I think that my worring is logical cos bad things happen to people all the time, so bad things might happen to me. Awful images insert themselves into my brain, mostly ones that my mind makes up almost to shock me it seems!
Also, I worried about my rabbit, who, while I was away for a couple of days, got eaten by a fox, as the hutch door wasn't closed properly by the person looking after him. This was very upsetting obviously but this has reinforced the feelings of' what I'm worrying about can actually happen!'
I have found that I have a lot of anxiety about my dog. My dog is very precious to me and I am so worried that something will happen to him. I find that I don't like leaving him alone in the house and when I do I have visions that there will be a fire in the house and he will be trapped and wont be able to get out (so much so that when I pull up to my street I am actually looking for the blue lights of the fire engine and am relieved when I don't see any), or that when we are out another dog like a pitbull might attack him and kill him and I wont be able to do anything. Or even that someone evil that hates dogs might have left something sharp out on purpose and he might jump onto it while playing. I tied him up outside a shop and popped in to literally get three things and I almost couldn't stay in the queue (1 person long) and felt physically sick while I was in there and almost put my groceries down and left the shop because I couldn't stand it any more.
Its so tiring worrying all the time, I'm jealous of people who don't think about any of these sort of things and are carefree. I know I probably have it mild compared to some people, so I don't want to feel like I'm moaning.
So.. I found this website, and now I know that I can get help I am going to make an appointment with my doctor. I'm sure it will help to talk to someone about it who understands. But this website has helped already with understanding what's going on.
I'd be interested to know if anyone else has similar thoughts, maybe about their pets or the other stuff I have mentioned.