Hi all, I really am finding a lot of solace in this site. But I can't help feeling that I am not as bad as everyone else, though I still have a definite problem. Because if this, I've been finding it hard to get help.
I don't have a health phobia or social anxiety. I used to have a phobia and have had some very hard times, so I know my anxiety is down to that. My main problem is that I catastrophise. If someone wants to have a meeting with me, if I do something wrong... anything, I catastrophise. I also worry that I will never finish my work, that people are thinking bad of me... I worry about everything. When I panic, I can get bery tearful and angry. I feel a warmth in my chest and can feel like things are unreal (I suffer from depersonalisation and can get very claustraphobic if paniced). I've only ever had two actual panic attacks. But when I get anxious, it is still debilitating and I cannot calm down until I am fully reassured.
Even though I feel I am at the lower end of the disorder, my panicing is making work very difficult and causing a major problem in my relationship. I am also tired from being on edge so much.
If anyone feels similar, it really would be lovely to hear from you.