So update
Yesterday while watching a movie with my friend not feeling anxious at all I had this odd feeling I never felt before.
Friend took my pulse and my heart rate lying down was 114, I go to stand up and it sky rockets to 150, my friend insist on taking me to the hospital and when I get there, they instantly tell me its not normal for it to be that high and stay that high even with anxiety, after 5 hours under observation, my heart drops to 105 and they discharge me and let me go home, follow up with my primary care, well this morning I wake up it's still 115, so I decided to drive 50 miles to the VA and stroll in there with McDonald's and coffee, I smile and look at my doctor and say, can you please take my pulse? When she takes it her eyes get wide and she instantly tells me to stop eating and the next thing I know im being rolled over to the Emergency room, now mind you, this is the lady that said this is all in my head lol. I'm sitting at this point laughing, song Highway to hell is playing at this point in my head lol, I may die but I'm going out proving a damn point. We get to the ER and the docs there are confused, they started with the entire anxiety spew until they called in the staff Doctor for mental health who politely informed them that a heart rate from anxiety comes down after a hour max but doesn't stay elevated like mine, next thing I know the same cardiologist comes rushing in that told me on the 12th, that it was all in "my head" apologizing to me saying sorry she must had missed something, I was given a beta and now my heart rate is 80, I can sleep like this, no answer as to what this is but they all agree it's not anxiety now, lol I am loving it and hating it, this is proof doctors use the anxiety excuse way too damn much, when I have the administrator coming down to my bad apologizing then that means something is wrong..... I'll keep you all posted, other good news, no longer afraid of 120 lol beats per minute, stayed at that rate all day today lol.