Hi its been now nearly a year and although my panic attacks have died down, my head constantly thinks and i am constantly worrying. My biggest fear of dying i cannt go a day without think this is gunna happen soon so i rush round every day making sure everythings organised just incase, i check on my kids and make sure there aware of me and how much i love them just incase they dont see me again. It started of when i found a lump on my head in which i told myself i had a brain tumour,( had an ultra sound n they said it was just bone,but still not happy with that) because of this my anxiety my fears are spiralling out of control and im sick of it.
it takes me ages to get to sleep once im asleep im ok, but trying to get to sleep is a nightmare. i have pins n needles constantly headaches constanlty and sometimes go dizzy. i just wished i could stop thinking sooo much.
i never used to be like this, i was always a bubbly happy girl attitude was well when your times up your times up. but now its affecting my happiness my fears are controlling everything. i get to a point where im trying to plan so far ahead just incase i am not hear. i dont want to book a holiday this year just incase i dont make it and then weve paid for a holiday.
anyone similar or am i going crazy >>
thanks