I don't know why I'm writing here but I don't know what else to do. I feel so low. I suffer from depression and sometimes panic attacks. This week I am having long anxiety attacks. At the moment I am crying and cutting and I can hardly breathe and I don;t know how to make it stop. I hate myself. I hate life. I am sick of feeling like this. My life feels out of control. I don't know what I want and not for lack of trying to work it out.
I can't concentrate or think of anything I want to do. I am just sitting sobbing and feeling sick. I don't want to bother any of my friends or family. I feel weak and pathetic and alone. I need help but I don't believe anything can help.
I just want to be happy.