For quite a while now (I would say almost year) I have felt slightly different to my usual self. I have always been a highly stressed person, but also knew how to have fun and look on the bright side of things. When I met my partner he always said how refreshing it was to meet somebody with a fresh mind and approach to things. However yesterday, we sat and spoke about how bad our relationship has become because I'm distant, never want to do anything and am constantly angry. Like I am a completely different person.
I see everything as a chore, work, walking the dog (although I enjoy walking) making tea, even having a conversation sometimes. All I seem to want to do is sit in silence and read, go to bed, watch rubbish TV.
I've also started to develop slight OCD tendancies. I'm terrible with money...I spend £5 on my lunch and you'd think I'd cleared out my bank account. I've become very picky with food, having cravings and having to stick to them rather than eat what we have in.
I do become very frustrated because I am quite a strong minded person, and I would think I could get myself out of this cloud I seem to be sitting in, but I really don't know how to.
We have just booked a break to Scotland to try and spend some time together. This is my favourite place and an absolute comfort to me, yet the minute we pressed 'book', I panicked about the weather, what if we crash...I can't even find joy in one of my favourite things but I am pushing myself to be excited and deep down I know I can't wait to go.
Sorry this is such a ramble, but my question is, what should I do? I feel so stupid being 25 and acting like my whole world is crumbling when I know I should be thankful for everything. I do have moments where I look at my life and think 'I'm so lucky' and I have a moment of inner calm. Then I wake up the next day and I'm back to normal. I think work plays a huge part in things for me so I don't want to go to the doctors if this is related to one thing?
Any advice would bre greatly appreciated.