Wish I wasnt feeling lonely

[winternight]

I feel lonely everytime I see how stupidly I make those efforts to keep everything fine. More lonely when I care about someone not sleeping angry or in a bad mood, but she doesn't reciprocate. She doesn't mind mis interpreting me, how I must be sleeping after listening to that, or when she can go to someone else but not call me back to make peace. But she can text back to hurt me back when I even don't know why. When I am doing so much to move on. Why she becomes like that like before when she is in that mood. Which reminds me bad memories. And I can't sleep. Why noone cares, don't even bother that how I must be feeling, if I slept well. Why has she changed. Why can't she come as soon as she gets time and ask.. what happened.. why did you say that.. Will it always be like this now.. Will I be one sided.. Does she know others affect her mood... But she only still affects mine...