Still not feeling any better unfortunately, I quit my job today too due to advice from friends family and my doctor. I think I regret it already though. Now I have know idea what to do because I know I will be 10 x more anxious now about getting a new job in case the same thing happens again. Although it was the best decision as it was unfair on the company I was working for, me and my family having to worry everyday, I still can't help thinking I've let my anxiety win My manager was very supportive and lovely about it, said I could contact her when I'm better but who knows how long that will take or whether there will even be a position available.
I guess it will be good for me to be able to take a couple of weeks off to try and get a bit better before finding another job. But then brings the question, what am I going to do? I feel like any job will make me anxious now, any suggestions? Also theres the question of will I even be able to find another job, as unemployment is so high these days.
Things have also got a million times worse with my mum today, she was being very moody and aggressive as per, and I asked her what was wrong, and she turned round and blamed me for everything, saying it's my fault I'm unwell and what not. My boyfriends mum is so much more supportive than mine its ridiculous, she's even offered to come to the doctors with me tomorrow. So me and my mum had a huge argument, that ended in tears for me. I just don't understand how she can blame me and think its my fault, I just thought it was a really horrible thing to say. What's worse is that she is so supportive of my brothers sever ADHD, going to the doctors with him, sorting everything out etc, and not once does she punish him for anything he does. He's not clever, he's awfully behaved at school, he's rude to her, worse to my dad and me, but nothing is ever done about it. I genuinely think that's why he's the way he is, because he knows he will get away with it. Don't get me wrong I do believe there are some aspects of ADHD but I feel the majority of his behaviour is just because he knows he can, like he's playing up to the label. We're not speaking though, haven't spoken since anyway, I don't want to speak to her, as immature as that sounds but it really did upset me what she said, how spiteful about it she was too. It's like shes taking all of her problems with my dad and brother and herself, and making it all my fault. I know she doesn't like the idea of me not having a job but I honestly couldn't cope with the severe anxiety I was going through every day doing my other job. Also I didn't give myself a summer break after my A-levels, so I think I deserve a few weeks at least, just to think about what I want and need to do.
Feeling really low about all of this, especially of how unsupportive my mother is :/ I genuinely think she dislikes me, that may sound silly and again immature, but what kind of mother says that to their daughter? I know she has a lot of problems but everything always seems to be my fault, from my brother swearing to her being in a bad mood, always me. Ugh. And my dads doing a job up north so I haven't had him to speak to this evening My boyfriend and his mother are so lovely and supportive of everything though, bless them. I just don't know what im going to do, what job, what career path I can fulfil without my anxiety getting the better of me, I just feel stuck.
Any advice with careers or my mother would be much appreciate guys, and thank you for taking the time to read my little rant as well haha. Hope you're all doing well