Hard times

[Claire1631]

Hi Everyone, I have been down this month always having panic attacks and anxiety. I feel like I am the only one as it has got so bad that I don’t go into work. I’ve had a few days off and I am on zero-hours contract so if I don’t go in I will not get paid. The reason for my panic attacks is work it’s so negative everyone talks about each other and it’s really awful subjects and that has triggered me off. I am worried and scared to go in as I have booked one shift on Wednesday and I feel to cancel it but I have missed out on a few shifts already . I am finding it hard to find another job and because of this I sometimes don’t eat as I am scared my panic attacks and anxiety will become so bad that I will feel sick and I will embarrass myself.I will be having counselling but that will take months its so hard as I don’t have friends I am an only child with no kids in my 30s still living with my mum and dad who have their own sickness problems. Everyday I wake up crying wondering why I am like this maybe because my dads side of the family has mental health problems so I got this from my dads side. As I am writing this I am crying and feel that I will be alone once my mum and dad are gone. To be honest I feel alone now and I really want to quit everything and just stay in bed. I feel as if I have let my mum and dad down and I feel even worse being an only child as everything is on me to deliver. I just wanted to share my story. Enjoy your weekend everyone who has read my post. Take care for now.

[Stippler]

I am sorry you have to deal with all of this. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate. Please try not to be so hard on yourself if you can. I cannot offer much but to tell you this is temporary. I will be holding you in the Light. 🙏🙏🙏

[Sparrow58 in reply to Stippler]

You have a lot going on. Let's hope the counseling will not be too far away. You are not alone there are others out there dealing with their own issues. Try and take one day at time or even 1 hour at a time. You could meditation online. Use this site because others DO understand.

[Annabella1976]

Hi I have the same anxiety and depression after my stroke and it gets worse when I have to go to rest bite im going next mon to Thursday I haven’t been there since the corona virus and my anxiety and depression is worse knowing that im going and I have spasticity bad to best wishes to you all. Xx