My anxiety has got worse. I'm starting my medication again

[ImHere_Again]

For the past months, I have felt my anxiety creeping back in. It wasn't until June when things really got bad. I had my first panic attack in three years. It been getting worse again. I started my medication again so I am hoping that works. It's barely my second day on it again and I feel terrible. It may be the medication that is making me feel so shaky and worsen my dizziness. The first time I took the medication, three years ago, it helped immensely, so I am hoping it works great again. It's currently 3:40 am I have got no sleep. My body feels like jello. I have been shaky and I have had heart palpitation all night. I am scared to fall asleep. As I am falling asleep I feel like I will stop breathing. I also got a sudden chill. I felt like my body got cold out of nowhere, which scared me. I never had this feeling before, I am assuming it's my anxiety. I feel really frustrated because I have to resort back to my medication and I feel like I am getting worse. I wasted the entire month of June doing nothing because of this. I don't want to do the same thing again. Everyday is challenging. I find showering difficult because I don't want to be alone. I am afraid of something bad happening. It's do difficult to do everything I need to every day because I feel dizzy and if its not that I feel heart palpitations. Its something that I deal with almost all day. I felt normal for two hours just two days ago. I was getting some hope because I was starting to sleep again but today all that was diminished. My insomnia has returned. I would go to the doctor but my doctor makes me feel dumb. It feels like I am bothering him with these things. He brushes me off and makes me feel stupid. Because of that I resort to the Internet. I always Google my symptoms. I ask Google what I should do or how I should deal with my anxiety every day.

[Agora1]

Oh no.....don't ask Dr. Google, he is too generalized and will make you worry

more. Pick our brains after all we have experienced what you are feeling.

Without any doctor's degree, I can tell you from my own journey with Anxiety

that it's playing a mind game with you until the chemicals in your brain are reset

again having started your medication. It's going to be okay but will take a little

time for your brain to adjust. Lean on us. The light is always on 24/7 xx

[designguy]

Anxiety can make you hyperfocus on your body sensations and blow them out of proportion and unless your medication is super fast acting like a benzo it will take a week or two before it makes a noticeable difference. One of the key things to healing is to accept that your anxious thoughts are lies and distortions and to not believe or trust them and know that you don't have to believe everything you think. Also, if your med is working for you and there aren't any severe side affects there is no reason to get off of it, some of us need a med to function optimally for physiological reasons.

[designguy]

And yes, Agora is right, the worst thing you can do is use Dr. Google, I know it's tempting but all it is doing is adding to your anxiety.

[luluw23]

Hi, I’m new to this group but not to anxiety. Hang in there, it will get better even though your anxiety is lying to you and making it feel hopeless. I recently upped my medication after 10 years and I’ve been struggling too. Stick with the medication it will kick in. Just keep telling yourself you will be ok. When you hear anxiety say “what if…” just realize that is only anxiety and tell it to get lost. Also try not to think about how you feel. Get your mind on something else. I hope you feel better soon.