i hate the summer. i really struggle with the heat and it makes me sooo uncomfortable. a comfortable temperature for me to go out for a walk is around 6 c and to sit outside and enjoy the weather is around 15 c. but now its starting to get hot, and i get sweaty, and my skin starts to sting and burn, and i get a sensory overload and then i feel like i cant have a conversation or focus on anything else. but this is something out of my control, i like the idea of that there are some things in my life that i can control. but this is a big thing that i cant control and i dont know what to do. i have body confidence issues, so even in the height of summer i will wear jeans and maybe even a jumper depending on how i feel that day and i will almost give myself heat stroke on the hot day because i am so hot. as soon as it hits 17/18 c its too hot for me. summer here getss to 27-30 c so im already becoming nervous as its 14 c today.
theres so much pressure during summer to be happy and i hate it. everyone is always so positive about how nice the weathers getting, and ooh its so warm today, oh i can finally wear shorts etc. i hate it. my gf family has a pool, so everyone is always there during the summer, in the sun, having fun, and i literally wanna crawl in a cold hole. i always get told im being miserable, or queastioned as to why im wearing big thick clothes, or told to get in the pool and have fun. people always put pressure on me to go out, have fun and enjoy the weather while i can. but i hate it. i love the snow, i love the rain, i love the cold. i love winter. if i could live in a snowier place i would as we get snow maybe once every 5 years and it sucks! the worst part about winter is im desperate to go out and do things cos i love the weather, but everything seasonal, theme parks are shut, things close early cos it gets dark early, i love the early nights of the winter, but it does totally suck that you cant go out and do anything cos its dark by 4pm and everything shut and closed. the only thing i like about summer is how green everything is, and how all the animals are out. im a total nature freak so i love when everythings blooming.
i just wish people would leave me alone in the summer and accept that im not as happy as everyone else and that i dont want to partake and im quite happy at home doing nothing.