Its been a long time i have been like this.
Its hard to describe , but i will do my best.
most of the time i feel like im ok , but not fulfilled . Like im not living fully . Something is always there , thats holding a part of me back . Even if do something or engage in any activity , its like i cant fully enjoy it , like i cant experience satisfication and joy to a level at which im contented.
For example , if i play a video game , i might enjoy a bit , but it will just feel like plain after a while . Im not saying i am depressed ,but im plain most of the time. if i look back at everyday , for instance take yesterday , i feel like it wasnt a bad day , but it wasnt a day i can say was very enjoyable . Like it is just a day i got through without anxiety . I want to live to the fullest , but theres some part of me that doesnt allow