I feel so hopeless

[DoggieLoverbon]

I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so defeated. I’m so drained of worrying all the time about my health. My lymph nodes or at least I think they’re my lymph nodes my right one is swollen and it hasn’t went down in almost a week. I keep looking stuff up and I’m convinced I have cancer, I’m 19 and I’m so freaking sick of feeling like this. I can’t get any clear answers. I can’t go to the doctors right now, and I’m so mad. And I’m so hopeless, I want to stop feeling like this. I am so sick of feeling like this. I don’t know what to do anymore. I just want to know I’m okay for once!!! I’m so scared. I feel so alone during all of this. And I don’t know what to do anymore.