It’s like you recognize the anxiety holds you back but you refuse to stop being anxious because you feel it protects you from what you’re anxious about.
Side note: tomorrow is Easter and I’ve been taking so much time off of work to combat anxiety. It’s been bad. My boyfriend has been housing me and my family is so beyond over hearing about my health anxiety. I feel really alone. I’m afraid of going to Easter tomorrow because I’m so sensitive right now and Zoloft isn’t making me feel good. I don’t want to cry or have anyone point out how anxiety has effected me. I’ve dropped weight from anxiety and I’ll cry if somebody brings it up. I miss myself so much.. the past couple months have sucked.
I go from being scared of every symptom ever. One minute it’s me getting petrified I have epilepsy. Then it’s that I’m crazy. Then it’s that the doctor missed something. Then I freak out from Zoloft side effects. I don’t even know what to do anymore but I hate feeling like this empty shell.