Pressure

[Blake96]

Parent pressure to get a job despite knowing I have agoraphobia/panic/visual anxiety symptoms. I did post something about this recently. I havnt been able to stop thinking about how am I going to get work. I need a work from home job. It’s been over a year of no income and they are not going to let me just sit around and make non money. I am working on my mental health taking the right steps but it’s taking too long especially in there eyes. Feeling really guilty and depressed that my younger brother (21 is working) my sister goes to school and works (18) and I’m 23 and can’t hold a job because It’s too much on my anxiety and symptoms I want to die. It was tough for me to drive to the bank last week (15 minute drive) I had a mini attack in line waiting to deposit money quick. I feel so much guilt and feel like my parents look at me like I’m shit and will be nothing. It’s just that yesterday he said I need to set goals like “I will be working by this date” etc and that “I can’t do this forever” as I’m not work and be at home. So stressed out I hate that suicide has been a thought lately. Not that I’d do it but just the fact that I can end this torture if I had to. Money is evil and I have to find a way to make it consistently soon.

[Mike7777]

Hey man im in the same boat sorta. Dont let anyone tell you how to live your life. Maybe bring one of your parents to a psychologist appointment with you. Dont feel guilty, keep taking steps to make yourself better. I reccomend a delivery job or work from home yes. Also, if you are having lots of panic attacks suggest a benzo to your doctor. It wont cure everything. But helps me in many situations.

[Blake96]

Yeah an online gig to make like $500-1000 a month would seal the deal for sure.

[destinymichelle]

Hey love, I’m in the same spot. I haven’t had a job in almost a year. Any time I’ve tried to take a step in that direction I have failed. I can’t get myself to do it. I honestly can’t get myself to even walk inside a store for more than 5 minutes and I dread it the whole entire time. I’ve only had one job (I’m 19) that lasted for 3 months and I was doing amazing. It’s so crazy to think back at that last year around this time I was doing so good and now I’m doing terrible. I’m trying to work on the right steps to a better life such as getting on medication and maybe some kind of therapy for my GAD. I feel like it’s taking too long as well. We will get there! I understand this feeling very well considering my fiancé has been the one working, my brother is a manager at his job and he suffers from GAD as well. It makes me feel like shit honestly.

What I’m trying to say is, I know that the pressure is too much. Everyone telling you what you aren’t doing right is stressful, especially when you already have anxiety on your back. You’re not doing anything wrong. If you feel like you need to work on your mental health, go for it! It’s a hard journey, but it will be worth it. Keep on pushing! You got this! If you ever need to talk please message me.