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Ugh, ugh, and UGH!

I’m tired of having to write these negative posts. As some of you may know I’ve been to the ER 3 times since July. I’ve had 2 chest X-rays, 2ekgs, 2 blood work done, and 3 urine tests from all 3 of my hospital visit. I think the last time I went to the hospital was in September. Everything was perfectly fine, yet I’m sitting here convinced that I’m dying. I’m trying to learn to accept my physical symptoms and realize that they’re not a threat as long as I just learn to understand them. It’s been so hard with my fiancé’s new job because I just dread being alone. That’s all that I can think about is being stuck here alone all night. I’ve barely even been able to sleep because my anxiety has been so bad!!!! I went to sleep for an hour last night and woke up feeling extremely anxious as soon as I opened my eyes. I finally went back to bed a couple hours later, but I could only sleep for 3 hours! This is miserable. I’m ready to just give in and go to the ER again. It’s so hard believing that this is all just anxiety. I’m really trying to accept it but it’s been so hard. I check on my lips constantly anymore to make sure that they’re not turning purple or blue. I can’t handle this anymore and I don’t know what to do... every night I have to be alone I tell myself that tonight is gonna be the night that I die... I just can’t help it and I’m losing my mind.

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destinymichelle4 years ago

I get cold chills go up my back and to my shoulders that last quite awhile. My fingers and arms will go numb and tingly and it feels so hard to breathe and sometimes it’s hard to swallow too... I’m so tired of being tired

SnowWhite944 years ago

I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through this! Know that you’re not alone I’ve had the same things happening to me as well. Tons of doctors appointments and tons of tests, scans, X-rays, plus a trip to the ER. I’ve even had a lot of the same symptoms as you and everyone has told me it’s anxiety as well. It’s honestly insane how much it can affect our bodies, especially after being in constant anxiety for days/weeks/months. I haven’t really seen any of your old posts but have you considered trying any kinds of medications or therapy? They have helped me a lot! Even when you feel physically alone while your fiancé is gone, remember you’re not alone here and we’re all here for you and many are going through the same thing. Chances are that what you’re going through really is just anxiety and I know first hand how hard it is to believe that (I suffer from health anxiety too). But I’m sure that you are very healthy, your mind is just overworked and it’s affecting your body now. I’m sending you hugs and positive vibes, and I hope you feel better! You can message me anytime

destinymichelle in reply to SnowWhite944 years ago

I have considered therapy and medications and I’m all for it, but I have no health insurance so I’m having to figure out how to get to that point. I also think that’s why I have so much anxiety and health anxiety because I don’t have a doctor or a professional monitoring me and my symptoms. It’s so hard

Flintridge in reply to destinymichelle4 years ago

There’s lots of free resources online, please tap into them. YouTube has a lot. Look up Lucinda Bassett. Now a days I’m sure you can buy her program on eBay for much cheaper and it’s really good. You can see that what you’re doing now isn’t helping you and you won’t ever get the answers you want or need.

in reply to destinymichelle4 years ago

Sorry that your going through this destiny but I'm in it myself......just be strong and ride it to the wheels fall off...I'm convince something else is realy wrong with me and its causing my anxiety, but in the meantime , keep pushing ..theres gotta be light somewhere, if they can treat a broken leg, a bullet wound, or clogged artery then you know they can treat our condition for wich whatever it may be...the problem we are facing is that going through anxiety it's hard to point out what exactly is causing all these symptoms..but we keep digging until we find the cause and then you treat the cause and recover

....so far I'm still digging lmao...but I wont stop like I said until the wheels fall off...🙏🙏prayers keep you going

destinymichelle in reply to 4 years ago

I’m so sorry to hear that you’re feeling the same way... I hope that we can accept our symptoms and learn how to cope with them or better them.

destinymichelle in reply to SnowWhite944 years ago

Thank you so much for your kind words 💜

Amytat4 years ago

I feel you. I have been going thru it for the past 3 years. 3 looonnnggg years of thinking I'm dying every day of it. I know it's easy to say but it's a thought. It feels so read tho. I myself was thinking the same right now.

What helps me is listening to worship songs and listening that God has not given us a spirit of fear. If you belie in God YouTube those it helps a lot and get up and clean the house and listen. Domt listen to your body

Get a Instagram page post interesting stuff food/pretty photos etc and connect your mind into something else.

God bless

destinymichelle in reply to Amytat4 years ago

You gave me hope that maybe things can get better. 3 years of thinking you’re going to die everyday? It’s only been a few months for me and it’s driving me crazy!!! You’re a tough cookie!! I hope that you can find happiness and peace. 💜💜💜

Lm924 years ago

Destiny, call around to clinics in your area. A lot of places have sliding scale fees meaning they charge based on your income.

destinymichelle in reply to Lm924 years ago

I’ve been trying to look around at my options. I think I’m ready to take that step although it’s scary. There is a clinic here that has licensed agents who can talk with you about insurance plans, so I’m going to see if I could even qualify for any insurance and just go from there.