Bizarre relationship worries

[Abbiek99]

Hello I've been on this site for a while and a lot of my anxiety is usually health anxiety, me and boyfriend went for a break last week and I've never felt as good in my life. I had no health problems or worries until around the third day when I convinced myself my boyfriend is a closeted gay. What on earth is this whole new anxiety about , he doesn't give me any reason to believe he is gay. My boyfriend is a very outgoing polite and sometimes hyperactive young man , hes immature for his age but we get along amazingly. This nearly ruined our holiday as I couldn't shake the thought that after nearly 3 years of being madly in love that he may be gay and its come completely out of no where, this is bizarre and completely new I was just wondering if anyone else gets fixated on stupid ideas to ruin their own happiness?

[Abbiek99]

Also if anyone could help, is this anxiety or am I becoming more and more delusional.

[EleanorRose]

From an outsiders perspective, this definitely sounds like anxiety.

I don’t think you’re ‘delusional’ but anxiety has a habit of attaching itself to the things which matter the most. I know it’s easy to say and hard to do but try not to sabotage your own happiness. You are in a loving relationship, this is just anxiety.

[Abbiek99 in reply to EleanorRose]

I needed someone else's perspective thankyou very much, it's a new thing for me to obsess about. You're right because I brought it up with him and it really upset him, if I dont get it out of my mind I'm going to end up causing a lot of fallouts.

[EleanorRose in reply to Abbiek99]

No problem.

You’re absolutely right in all that you say. Take the reassurance that he’s given you and remind yourself when you need to.

Unfortunately, anxiety (and maybe low self esteem?) makes us sabotage ourselves sometimes. You have a good thing and you deserve to be happy.

[Abbiek99 in reply to EleanorRose]

Thankyou so much for talking with me about this I really needed some help