I have been under a great deal of stress lately. And while I was talking to my boyfriend over skype the topic came up about me being older than him but I was actually supposed to be born after him. Then he said something along the lines of "Its not fair that your older than me" he said that jokingly and then I get an intense wave of deja vu after that statement. It was really scary at first but then I slowly felt like I was forgetting what the deja vu was about. This tends to happen when I get deja vu, I'll worry about it so much that I will forget what the deja vu was even about.
After I get deja vu my anxiety implodes on itself and I start thinking "Oh god...did I just have seizure?" I'm not even diagnosed with epilepsy, and I dont shake or anything when it happens. After it happens my anxiety ramps up with all of its symptoms and i get kinda sleepy from worrying too much. However when it does happen I get this thing called "nervous chest" where when I have anxiety and I try not to hyperventilate or anything I get this feeling in my chest where I thought it was the classic like, rising feeling but, its something I get when I am really anxious and its throughout my whole chest.
What also is worrying is that yesterday I was at my therapist telling her about my horrible trip with my brother while he was on leave, I lost my train of thought and I automatically thought "Oh god I am having a seizure" my face flushed and I got really embarrassed. I could still talk but I couldn't remember what I was talking about. But...I know that people lose their train of thought all the time. I was doing really good with my deja vu there for a while but then I got one this morning. I am so so so scared that its epilepsy but everyone I talk to in my life tells me its just my anxiety and that I am totally ok. I believe them but...then it happens again and its so terrifying that I tell myself there is no way it is just anxiety, it has to be something else.
Can anyone relate to this?