Hi, new here!
Hi I'm Sarah,
I've joined because I have a history of panic, anxiety, OCD, and bad depression. I hope I can meet people I can relate to and learn to shut off my negative intrusive thoughts. Lately life has been very difficult lately. I have periods where I can be productive, work, do well in school and feel good day to day. But then I have periods like the one I've been in for months. I feel like crying every day. I'm finding it so hard to focus in school (I'm pursuing a Hospitality degree, BS) and difficult to maintain positive relationships. Every day is so difficult. I've been on Lexapro 20mg 1 pill daily for two years. It helped me getting out of an abusive relationship when I was 18 and was very effective up until a few months ago. I feel like it does nothing for me anymore. I actually lost my pills and am on a bad detox. I feel so out of it and really depressed. As for more of my life background I've dealt with eating issues, self harm, OCD, and trying to process the suicide of my father when I was 16. I know that his depression and OCD that caused him to do this has had more of a mental impact on me than anyone else in my family because I was so close to him and felt his pain. I know I eventually want to explore my medication options because my anxiety and negative thoughts are taking over my happiness. I know I am a good person and can have a happy life but I can't seem to take control of this depression. My anxiety tries to convince me there is no hope and I will not be successful in anything. My enjoyment for daily things are gone. All i want to do is distract myself from my pain. I hope I can find someone who can relate and meet new friends I guess. I find myself isolating myself more and more lately.
Anyways, thanks for reading if you did. <3