I don't feel like myself and probably never will

[ThiccYeet]

So about a year ago I was playing baseball with my friends and I ended up breaking my nose giving me a ski slope looking nose along with not being able to breathe through it anymore. I got a girlfriend around the time so my appearance didn't bother me too too much but the breathing was a serious thing I needed fixed since I'm a really active guy and enjoy running, playing sports and working out and all that and those heavily depend on proper breathing. Me and my girlfriend broke up so I was feeling really self conscious, broken, and pretty void in general. A few months after the breakup (a year after breaking my nose) I decided to get a surgery to fix my breathing and the shape. I got it and now I'm two months post op, my nose looks worse than before and I feel even less like myself. I'm stuck with some reverse hook nose. The worst part is, the $25,000 surgery that was supposed to fix the breathing failed and the bridge collapsed again which is why the tip juts out. It sucks man. I don't wanna get another surgery to fix my breathing because it's too expensive and it's higher risk. I hate the fact that pointless bad crap happens to people purely just to bring us down. But that's life and I guess that's something we have to live with, some people are just not meant to breathe lmao. The scary part is, the swelling isn't all the way down yet so my nose could end up looking even farther from my og nose I don't think I'm all that ugly but I just want to feel like myself again. If I could relive my entire life just to prevent that one pivotal moment where I broke my nose, I would no questions asked. It isn't a vanity thing, I don't care what people think of me. I just want to go back to feeling like good ol' me, you know? And I get it "a personality is what makes you who you are" that may be true, but I still wanna breathe and look at myself in the mirror thinking "who tf is this sexy devil?" without also thinking "This is not what I was born with." It's gotten to the point to where I wanna yeet myself off a building because of how void I feel lmao edgy ik. If I'm gonna die though, I'm gonna sign up for the army, fight and die an honorable man because I'm not about to yeet without contributing to my country :')

confidence levels: 20/100 Disappointment levels: 100/100

[kenster1]

hey from my point of view I cant see anything wrong but its only a picture im looking at.sure loads of woman wouldn't be bothering about your nose its personality that counts most.wish I was young enough to have another go t joining the army but I blew it.if that's what your heart is set on then go for it.

[nyardream]

I’ve had 3 surgeries on my nose to fix the shape and improve my breathing. I’m still not entirely happy with it, and probably never will be. That said, I’m more happy with it than I was after the first and second surgeries. Don’t expect another surgery to change your life, but maybe wait awhile and consider another surgery if it’s that big of a deal to you. If you’re having breathing issues, insurance should cover part of it.

[ThiccYeet in reply to nyardream]

isn't a second surgery risky though?

[nyardream in reply to ThiccYeet]

After surgery the swelling in your nose can take up to a year to completely go down. However, 90% of it goes down within a few weeks. I’d wait at least a year for another surgery, but talk to your doctor. From what I understand, the risk of multiple surgeries is prolonged healing, but I’ve never experienced it. I had complete nasal reconstruction and it healed within a month or so.

[nyardream in reply to ThiccYeet]

One more thing... don’t go to the same surgeon if he/she didn’t do a good job the first time around

[Agora1]

ThiccYeet, you are a smart and honorable young man. Things happen in life

that we might not be able to change. I happen to think you are a good looking 16 y.o. My

concern is about your breathing issues. Considering you are a very active person,

I would hate to see that holding you back. Have some consults with other doctors regarding your

breathing before attempting another surgery. There may be another way to

address the issue. Nowadays so much is possible. You sound like a guy who

had a lot of confidence in yourself before that broken nose. That confidence

doesn't go away. It's still there deep down. Love yourself for who you are now.

Looks change in all of us through the years, sickness, accidents and maturing but

breathing is our lifeline. That should take #1 priority on your list of "to do's"

Welcome to this support group. I'm glad you are here. xx