So today went well until this evening. Anxiety kicked in to over drive. Went to CBT and doc gave me a at home blood pressure machine, were doing a little expirement. I'm to take blood pressure readings thru the day, when I feel good and when I have anxiety and boy I didn't realize how much anxiety raises your bp by. We did a relaxation technique and he got me so relaxed that my BP went down to 91 over 78 then he triggered an attack on me and it Shit up to 143 over 94 then did the relaxation technique. Dropped to 100 over 81. He said it's funny how anxiety works and I said but it doesn't feel too great. I was told by my doctor it's false high blood pressure due to anxiety and if they put me on a med I would plummet big time once it subsided so no blood pressure meds for me. I'm suppose to use relaxation techniques to counter to high blood pressure but not easy when your heart is skipping like a stone across a pond. Anyways hanging in there, you all hang in there. I'm fighting this battle and once I'm done I'm coming back to you all out with me. No one should suffer this from this crap. Btw if there are errors I'm posting from my cell phone and don't always catch the errors. O if you wanna laugh, came home during my anxiety attack and flopped on my bed and bed broke lmao I was like Damn I know I was fat last year but i lost 80 pounds lol. Guess I need to lose more. Lmao. Good night you all.