Can't control my thinking

Try make this long story short..

So January this year I was washing my car then my heart started to go really fast started sweating out of breath couldn't talk without feeling tight for breath chest pain and back pain ambulance was called was taken to hospital ecg was fine but bloods showed damage to heart so was kept in then taken to cardiac Ward as they said I had a mild heart attack.. had loads off tests then sent to Edinburgh for an angiogram and was thankfully told my heart was fine no blockages nothing was perfect.. so that was good I had every test done and feel lucky I had all that done. So after a week was discharged and now waiting for 24hr tape. Been back to a&e twice with chest pains but told everything fine so sent home nor had any chest pains or very fast heart rate. But been very anxious about doing anything that might bring it back on so that's how I got depressed and more anxious the past few months, so not been leaving my home ect basically doing nothing what time I would walk the dog very short distance and do my housework. Past 2/3 weeks av been up and out more gp hospital and counselling appointments even go to my friends house past 3 days. Housework every day as got OCD but to day done my housework and my heart done this think like it stopped and really hurt but I was ok so kept going finished what I was doing I keep getting odd pain in my back below shpulderblad on left side so off course my mind is over thinking that because I have not really moved much past few months that I have done damage to my heart.. I am waiting for my gallbladder to be removed as I have gallstones and it dose give me pain all over my chest at times but never the part that is hurting to night. I no if I phone out of hrs they will send me to a&e then see I had all the tests and send me home as they do so no point phoning.. just can't stop thinking about it. Scared to move but yet you need to move to keep your heart going and healthy anxiety is one fucking bitch at times.. had half a 5mg diazepam (prescribed) about 30 mind ago not feeling at ease yet normally take 5mg but trying to cut down as I will be coming off them soon as been on them 7 years just as and when needed..

So sorry for long post..

[JAYnLA]

Hey Antonia. Just writing to say I'm so impressed that you are handling the challenges you're facing. Anxiety is bad enough when you don't actually have other health issues - but when you do, wow - it takes strong determination to put one foot in front of the other, which it sounds like you're doing. Brava!

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Hi JAYnLA

Thank you for your kind words 💜