I don’t know how to feel normal again and it’s quite difficult to explain

[Danzdanz123]

So it’s nearly been 5 months now of me suffering consistently everyday with anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I can’t work or do normal daily activities everything I do I feel anxious I’m constantly aware of everything, I can look like I’m relaxing on the couch but really I’m trying to bare the anxiety! Everyday I get up and try and beat it and accept it at the same time, but it’s difficult. My head keeps thinking back to when I didn’t feel like this. Like just going down to the kitchen or the toilet without feeling anxious. My head keeps telling me I’m never going to feel my normal self again and that My body is going to give up on me because it’s been through too much anxiety everyday. I’m getting assessed at the moment to what therapy I need the woman assessing me has advised me to try pick up the courage to take my anti depressants I never took, but I don’t have it in me to take them, I don’t think I can bare with any side affects I get from them. It’s so difficult. The physical sensations are horrid too it’s like I have to rest my head on something and then I can feel a muscle twitch in my head all the time and my nose gets sore a lot and also the chest and head pains. It’s consuming me and it’s so difficult to fight back.

[Delzek]

Danzdanz123 ,anti depressants can have side effects but they shouldn't be as bad as you describe. If the anti depressants you have been given do make you feel like that then Honestly explain to the person doing your assessment or your DR ,and ask for them to be changed, I had to change the pills I had to take because the first ones prescribed made me feel more ill the second lot made me sleep all the time but the ones I am on now really do help. I don't know how many times I try to explain to people " Your DR can only diagnose you by what you tell them and obviously physical examination, If you don't tell the DR everything no matter how unimportant you think it is, then the DR can't give you a proper diagnosis! That also means telling them how your medication is affecting you, A medication that works for one person without any side effects does not mean it will work for you or me the same way! Please talk to someone either your DR or Assessment consultant or even your Pharmacist! Good Luck DanzDanz123 all the best Derek

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Delzek]

Thank you! Yeah i think it’s my last experience I had with sertraline I had this overwhelming burning sensation all up through my body and it really did put me off them! I’m trying to get better naturally but sometimes it just gets too much!

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Delzek]

Also which anti depressants are you on if you don’t mind me asking? Have they really helped you?

[Delzek in reply to Danzdanz123]

I am not sure which is the Anti depressant medication ,I'm on Bisoprolol, Citalopram, Clopidogrel, Cyclizine, Lansoprazole, Simvastatin, Senna,(laxatives) Pentasa,Fybogel,

And Oramorph, and Zomorph ,for pain + Paracetamol

[itsjustkevin in reply to Delzek]

Citalopram is Celexa which is your antidepressant.

[Delzek in reply to itsjustkevin]

Thanks for that Kevin, I have trouble trying to remember which pill is for what,I take Diazepam for my Panic attacks, and I knew one of the others,I take to keep me calm. I only wish I had a pill to help me Sleep! I go days without sleep then sleep for days ,I just can't get a decent sleep routine.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Delzek]

I have that antidepressant obviously still not taking it. I’ve just always been the person to like things to be taken care of naturally obviously if it could only be cure by the medication I would then take it. I’m still in two minds and will hopefully get the courage to take it if my anxiety consumes me further.