Help with dark thoughts

Hello I’m 21 I’ve been diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder and panic disorder the panics I’ve overcome but joe I’m in a new stage where I have a lot of bad thoughts and feelings and the worst part is I’m not feeling afraid of them it’s mainly thoughts of death in some way but a lot of it is not feeling myself I’ve felt with intrusive thoughts before but there was always a part of me that said no that’s not me. But now it’s gone any explanation or help?

[JAYnLA]

This is really really common with anxiety - I've dealt with it a lot. If it gets out of hand get yourself to a safe place, even if it's a hospital. That said - it will always pass. In my therapy we're looking at it in terms of being old, suppressed pain that is resurfacing. Down the road it will have been a good thing, but when it's happening it's scary.

[Hidden in reply to JAYnLA]

Hello thank you for your reply it was helpful I’m more worried however that I don’t feel afraid when the dark thoughts come

[JAYnLA in reply to Hidden]

How do you feel when they come? Not afraid, but how would you describe your reaction to them?

[Hidden in reply to JAYnLA]

They almost come in a flash and it’s almost like I accept them but I don’t feel much at all but I know they should worry me

[JAYnLA in reply to Hidden]

When they flash through my mind I tend to worry - which sounds a bit like what you're experiencing. I know that I do not want to kill myself. I have spent a lot of time worrying that anxiety could lead me there, but it never has and now I'm doing better. I hope the same for you.

[Hidden in reply to JAYnLA]

Thank you for your help is there anything you did that helped?

[JAYnLA in reply to Hidden]

I didn't keep it a secret. I opened my mouth to close friends, a therapist and medical professionals about it.

[Hidden in reply to JAYnLA]

Oh no I do talk to my family about it they all just say they are thoughts they don’t be matter and I’ve got a therapy appointment at the end of the month

[JAYnLA in reply to Hidden]

Very glad to hear that you'll have a therapist to open up to about it.

[Shaymocha111 in reply to JAYnLA]

Do you feel like yourself again ? I’m trying it’s hard

[JAYnLA in reply to Shaymocha111]

I feel like myself as I currently am, which is to say that I deal with anxiety periodically throughout most days. I think part of what this condition asks of us is to learn to tolerate unpleasantness differently than we used to.

[Shaymocha111 in reply to JAYnLA]

I keep thinking I’m going to die

[JAYnLA in reply to Shaymocha111]

Anxiety and it's symptoms can't kill people. This is fact.

[Justbreathe1]

I also feel like this when I have it bad I get bad thoughts that scare me or I think dang am I really thinking these or is my anxiety just really messing with me, sometimes it makes us believe it too. I’ve had where my panic attacks from anxiety make me feel like I’m gonna lose my mind but don’t. It’s just so hard to let the thoughts pass and switch to a more conscious positive thought or self talk.

[Hidden in reply to Justbreathe1]

Mine are just dark in generally very dark things like imagining me in a coffin feeling like I’m going to end it when I honest to god don’t want to but I don’t feel like o don’t want to should I be thinking this more serious?

[Nikakin in reply to Hidden]

Hey im doing the same thing i have a lots of intrustive thoughts and when i dont worry about them i get worried why it doesnt bother me. Gosh its so not worth to worry. Because its just anxiety playing with our mind .

[Hidden in reply to Nikakin]

I’m the same it’s very hard I’m sorry to hear you’re dealing with this as well. I also get very focused on contamination kind of things like if I’ve put hair gel in and eat or drink but i haven’t not washed my hands I think it’s going to get stuck in my throat and choke me

[Shaymocha111 in reply to Justbreathe1]

Yep every five mins I think something bad and because my physical symptoms

[Hidden]

The fact that you acknowledge that they should not be there is good. Never just accept these thoughts, the fact you are not afraid is probably s good thing. Replace them with healthy thoughts as soon as you can after the dark thought goes; do this on purpose, that was a bad thought, but I have a sound mind and I think on good things, things with virtue, lovely, praise worthy. Think a thought like that right after or cut off the dark thought. You have control of your mind, show it.

[RoseyViolet]

Have you considered talking to your physician about these thoughts? I know some meds can cause side effects as you are describing. Perhaps speaking to your therapist about it too would be helpful. I'm no doctor, but I do know that the mind can play very big tricks on a person. I've found great help in a book called, Battlefield of the Mind, by Joyce Meyer. Coming from a history of abuse, this book helped me realize that I needed to be more mindful of the things I was thinking about and not always trusting or analyzing each thought as they come up. Some days it really can be said that it is a battlefield of the mind. I pray you'll find peace, hope and strength in your journey.

[Shaymocha111]

I feel the same way every five mins I think I’m going to randomly die or pass out