I cannot recall the last time I woke up with the joys of spring! I dread very day :-(

[Funkyfaerie]

Hi All,

I have been suffering for three years now, all sorts of symptoms. Excruciating muscle tension in neck and back.

Tinnitus

Jaw clenching

Stomach churning

Unbalanced

And more, and have learned to live with them.

But every morning I dread waking up as I fear the day ahead. I either wake up shaking, feeling sick, needing the toilet in a hurry, aching/ buzzing feeling in neck and shoulders, teeth and jaw hurting from clenching I dream every not and not always nice dreams.

I just want to wake up and be happy to be alive, like I used to...

Anyone else the same? Apologies for the rant!

[Icanbeathis2016]

I know those feelings. Hope you find solace in something. Even if you just gotta go look at the trees and the flowers that have bloomed.

I have some not so good dreams too.

Hope you come around😊

[Funkyfaerie in reply to Icanbeathis2016]

Hi

Good to hear from you again, I hope you are well and coping, how are those videos going, did you make another?

I am just complaining again!😋

Sometimes it gets too much as this has been going on too long now.

I know what you mean about the spring and I love it....unfortunately in the UK, it's very grey a lot of the time, I need the sun!

[Icanbeathis2016 in reply to Funkyfaerie]

It that how it is in the UK? More gloomy weather? Awee. Where I live we get too much sunshine. Lol. I have learned to take a second to watch the trees and flowers and the skies from time to time. Trying to be in the moment because I can definitely slip into the future too much or get stuck in the past.

And yes I am still committed to doing more videos. I try to post a new one every week or two weeks. I do have a new video posted.

I'm doing ok. Have my good days and my not so good days. 😊 So I know what you mean.

[Sasical]

Yes, I have been the same at times. Do you take any meds or would you be willing to?

I'm very anti-medication but my last period of anxiety was so bad that I wasn't able to shake it off alone. So I started meds just to take the edge off so that at least I was well enough to function and do things to address my anxiety.

[Funkyfaerie in reply to Sasical]

Hi Sasical,

It's funny how a lot of us are anti medication! Even though I feel horrible all day every day, I only take the odd 2mg diazepam, if I have to go out or am really bad, and I have some anti nausea tablets if I need them.

I would like to try something that would maybe kick start some normality in me.

What do you take?

[Sasical in reply to Funkyfaerie]

Sorry I missed your message, just seen it now. I take mirtazapine and gabapentin. After 4 months I'm starting on gabapentin reduction, all well at the mo. Mirt is the only antidepressant I tolerate well