You are stronger than you think....

I have been suffering from anxiety many years now. It got worse after I lost my dad 4 years ago. I have always dreamt about being normal and not having the symptoms and enjoy my life more. Recently I learned something that “normal” doesn’t exist and every single person has his/her own experiences and problems. No exceptions.

The past 2 weeks I felt as normal as I could ever get. No fear. Calmness. No hyperventilation. Peace. I was very productive at work. I was so proud of myself that I even thought that “that’s it. I am healed”. Well, today I’m back to square one. Focusing on my heart beat. Thinking about heart attacks. Almost convinced I’m dying. But, I’m trying to be kind to myself and remind that I am strong and this is NORMAL to feel shitty and anxious once in a while because I’m a human. So, when you are back to square one, please be kind to yourself and remind yourself that it’s just a wee bump on a road and tomorrow you will feel normal again. Whatever it means to you xx

[_Angela_]

Lovely little post hope your ok I’m having an anxious day too but take one day at a time, sometimes we just need to hear that we aren’t alone don’t we? We will do this together 🙌🏻 x

[happy_kitty]

I go through that cycle as well, every time I think I’m finally in control it all goes downhill again. It’s annoying but I keep pushing forward and maybe someday I’ll stay on top of things.

[Titan4757]

So true! It's been over a year since having panic attacks and you're correct, it does get better. I still have times or even days when I'm just not quite right but then the next day I feel great. It goes in waves and I've learned a lot over time about thinking or situations that trigger the bad feelings. I believe this panic/anxiety has been hiding in me for years and finally came out. It was a sign I needed a change in my life so I take it as a way to grow and not get complacent. Thanks for sharing!

[Hidden in reply to Titan4757]

Thanks for replying! I agree with what you said “it was a sign I needed a change in my life”! This is how I see my anxiety. Some people see it as a curse and I agree with that as well. But I also see it as a blessing (sometimes though lol). It pushes me to change and reconsider things in my life. And I am who I am partly because of it