Just existing, not living

[Fablegirl67]

My fears, anxieties, & panic have reduced me to just existing, not living. I wake up each morning filled with dread, because just getting through each day is exhausting. There is no joy, no peace, no contentment. There is only fear. Those of you who pray, please pray for me.

[Minnie87]

You are not alone!!

I could have written your post myself.

Keep going,you will get there xxx

Always here if you want a chat

[Fablegirl67 in reply to Minnie87]

Thanks honey.

[oicuamy]

Same here. The fear is debilitating. I just wish someone could help me feel better! I don’t believe my brain could make me feel this horrible. Ugh!

[scf19]

I understand where you are coming from because when I allow my anxiety symptoms to hold me captive in my room all day, all I can think is that I’m merely existing while those around me are living their lives. But lately I’ve been challenging myself daily by doing certain activities that are outside my comfort zone like for instance, getting out of the house at least once every day to do something whether it be just to take a walk. I just go do it because I just can’t continue to fear the world anymore.

[happy_kitty in reply to scf19]

I agree, I also find myself having to push myself just to do something more than just sitting around watching YouTube or Netflix. It helps to find something you like doing, it's best if it's forcing you to really be present in the world around you, and try to do it every day.

Scf19 mentioned getting out of the house and that's great! I love arts&crafts and the satisfaction that comes with creating something completely unique so I always have several projects going that I try to work on every day. Just find something you like to do and do your best to do it every day. But if you miss a day, don't give up just keep trying, it should get easier the more you do it.

Good luck!

[lorianxiety in reply to scf19]

I can understand that feeling and I depend on a diazepam for physical as well as other anxiety related symptoms,have been dependent most of my years and approaching the later yrs with more fear than ever before as I too have health anxiety--gp tried to wean me off them-----so getting out and about for a short while is good and hope you improve from one day to the next.I tend to shop ,but not much enjoyment anymore.

[charlieblue]

Feel exactly the same way ..like I have to fight my way through every day...the ocd is awful.

[oicuamy]

How ya doing?

[Want2BHappy3]

I feel the same way, don't feel like getting up most days, no reason for it. I hate feeling this way "STUCK"???

[Lotus4]

I had 2 good months November,December now I’m back to existing again.

[mrhealthanxiety in reply to Lotus4]

Have faith - you had 2 goods months so that tells you that you are capable of having more good months, you existed today but tomorrow you are living !

[mrhealthanxiety]

I fully hear you, but we are all living it’s just how we choose to see that - don’t get me wrong i need to apply what I’m saying as I’m in a real bad place but each day we are all trying and that’s a reason we are on this forum - we are not giving in ! Tomorrow is a new day 👍

[Finx]

You wrote my exact thoughts. I am like an empty vessel just existing. Every exchange at work takes all of my acting skills to muscle thru like I’m fine. I feel no joy. I feel nothing to look forward to. Just wake up 5am every day with the dread of another day ahead. My wife friends try to help but I’m lost. HAvent found any meds that help. I either am anxious or depressed. Nothing in betweeen. I don’t know how to keep going on like this. I mean who I am making happy. Just a drag on everyone.