I look in the Mirror & Don't see Myself Anymore..

[LoveMeg22]

Anyone going through this? Very depressing. 😳 When I look in the Mirror I don't see myself anymore. I see someone who is different. Someone that is going through something horrible. Anxiety, Stress, Depression. I'm just not the same person. I still have this small hope that is clinging on inside me ❤ that one day I will be my old self. Happy & enjoying Life. I never thought I could ever experience something like this. 😳 But I am going to put on a fight to overcome this! Its going to be a process but it's worth it! I need God again. ❤ Please pray for me. Pray for everyone to find strength to overcome this! 🙏 I have faith that everyone will.

[Agora1]

Hi LoveMeg22, Anxiety, Stress, Depression may change who we see in the mirror while going through these emotions. Always know who we really are is still within us, below the surface. Use techniques that work for you. Be consistent and never give up. One day that person you once knew will be smiling back at you. Have faith.

[LoveMeg22 in reply to Agora1]

Agora1 thanks for the response I know one day I will be myself again. It just sucks what we all have to struggle with now. Its a horrible battle. Why is it that Anxiety is such a tough thing to overcome?

[Agora1 in reply to LoveMeg22]

Meg, it's a learned behavior. I wasn't willing to live like that anymore. It's a wonderful feeling to now look in the mirror and see yourself smiling back.

[LoveMeg22 in reply to Agora1]

What do you mean it's a learned behavior? Is anxiety something we trained our minds to think like? 😮 makes sense in a way! Do I have to re train my mind again & tell myself that all this Anxiety & symptoms are not real?

[Agora1 in reply to LoveMeg22]

Once that negative thought and fear take hold, it's very difficult to undo. And so it keeps building in our minds until finally as miserable as we are, we don't know any other way. It takes over our behavior. We need to unlearn the negative responses and way of thinking. Instilling in our minds, positive thoughts, positive goals. Anxiety is unacceptable way of living. We basically have to learn another behavior. Almost like a child who is spoiled and whines, cries and throws himself on the ground if he doesn't get his way. That behavior is unacceptable. Therapist work with children to get them to turn around the beliefs and behavior. Same with anxiety. Does this make sense??

[LoveMeg22 in reply to Agora1]

Makes A LOT of sense! Thank you ❤ I just need to focus more on positive thoughts rather then negative. I just need to reverse my mind set on things. I know it's gonna take time but I'd rather do that then to deal with Anxiety the rest of my life!

[Agora1 in reply to LoveMeg22]

That's correct. One other example is my daughter who is anorexic. She has told me many times "but mom I don't know any other life". Six years of ED has taken over her mind set. I wish you well Meg. You can do it. Takes time and we will support you. x

[Sulley66 in reply to Agora1]

Agora1 is 1000% correct! You will be smiling again before you know it. 😁

[Icanbeathis2016]

Oh Gosh I have definitely felt like this countless times. It feels like yesterday I remember looking in the mirror stress, depressed, and the anxiety had me in a whole different world. I didn't even want to look at myself in the mirror. I felt ashamed, heartbroken, and I felt sad, frustrated, and angry all at once. I hated looking at myself. I would cry cry cry looking at how much weight I was losing I felt like I was dying inside. But do you know you are already saying words that took me til just recently to say, " I am going to put on a fight to overcome this". It will pass. Yes and same here I had to find God again. I had been so neglectful of praying and knowing to always pray and have faith and soon as this anxiety came and knocked me down I went crawling to God which I'm glad it happened so I can never forget ever again to keep God in my life and pray always no matter if I'm doing good or bad. But yes I will pray for you. I'm saying one now. I wish us all blessing and the strength to get through this anxiety that's the devil.

[LoveMeg22 in reply to Icanbeathis2016]

Wow way to steal those words out of my head ! Lol Gosh everything you just described sounds just like me! 😮 every time I look in the Mirror I know this is not me! Its a very different side of me. :/ some days I wake up like I'm in a fog/dream. Like I'm not even here. Like I have no feelings, like I'm just passing through. Its sad 😳 my mind is really messed up right now. I have lost God too & fighting hard for that relationship back! ❤ I always wonder if he gave me this Anxiety, this fear so I will come back to him!

[Icanbeathis2016 in reply to LoveMeg22]

Yes you and me both. I believe we needed to remember who to keep first in our life. But trust me you are not alone. I have felt every single thing and way you have felt.

[jennyjolly in reply to LoveMeg22]

You have to read 'Power in Praise' by Merlin Carothers

It's a wonderful,inspiring little book that explains if we Praise God for everything, even the awful times then He enters in to those experiences and transmutes them

For me it's been life transforming and works every time

Are you a member of a supportive church?

Maybe you would find that really helpful.

Love and all good wishes for your renewed health and happiness xx

[Stay_strong85 in reply to jennyjolly]

I am not because I am terrified of being out of the house or around people. I never have been this way.

[jennyjolly in reply to Stay_strong85]

It's important you read the book..it will really help you

This is just a bad period for you

Bach Flower Remedies are excellent

Rock Rose for fear and panic

Things will start to improve over time

The affirmation 'I am getting better & better each day in every way' is good too

Could you watch Christian TV sometimes?

Very uplifting and inspirational

You'll come through this

God is on your side

Must make sure you start eating well again

Even if you have to encourage yourself at first

Need to get into the habit again

Good habits of thinking more positively too

The Christian books/TV will be of great help

Wish I could help more

Jenny xx

[LoveMeg22 in reply to jennyjolly]

Good advice 😊 I'm going to start doing this! I need God more then ever! ❤ & Like you stated or suggested, seeking God in ways can help a lot! I plan to start going to church when this new church opens up by my house! 🙏I'm so excited because I believe this will help me out a lot! 😊

[Stay_strong85]

I feel the same...I need God so badly. 😔😳He is there, but I have to endure it and keep going. I am at a point where I truly don't see how to get out of this. Faith is all I really can count on. I don't even know who it is I see in the mirror...😭I am bones, lost so much weight. I can't believe all of this. I know if I stay patient God will deliver me from this. I question myself so badly now...what did I do so wrong? 😟

[LoveMeg22 in reply to Stay_strong85]

Stay Strong I'm with you all the way! ❤ I know God is there. I need him more then ever! This anxiety gives me all sort of negative thoughts & emotions! Its tough! 😣 all I have is faith too. That's all that God asks us for is Faith & to believe in his Son Jesus Christ❤ I know I do. I just need him more then ever!

[Stay_strong85 in reply to LoveMeg22]

I do, but because I am so broken in spirit, my faith is small. He hears me...I know. I accept Jesus as my savior, always, but I am having such a hard time seeing the way...thank you very much Meg. 😶😏😇We will overcome this, in time. I have never felt such pain in my life(emotionally, spiritually, pyhysically).

[LoveMeg22 in reply to Stay_strong85]

Oh trust me! Everything you just said sums up my spirtual being as well. 😮 I am too having difficulty seeing the way 😳 I know God is real ❤ I know he hears me! Its just an exhausting battle with this Anxiety tho. That's what is hurting my faith the most. 😳 I feel the pain you are experiencing too! God has his purpose with this tho! Don't question him ❤ he will have an AMAZING outcome for us! Trust in him! I have faith in you 😊😌 I have faith in all of us!

[Stay_strong85 in reply to LoveMeg22]

That's what I need to hear. 😶😢😚Thank you. I know there is purpose in all of this, and He is there. It is just hard...I am taking it very hard.

[Sulley66]

Been there for sure, but you are still the same person. You're just seeing yourself through "anxiety glasses". Be strong, and take it one day at a time. It will leave as mysteriously as it showed up and will be a distant memory before you know it. I promise. Be gentle with yourself and try to relax (I know it's hard) and accept it and don't fight it. Once you have accepted it and know it can't hurt you it will lose its power. God bless you!

[LDS32]

Golden rule of anxiety is never fight it. You cannot defeat your subconscious mind. I still make this mistake and I'm almost recovered. When you fall into a flowing river you go with the current fighting it will tire you out and you'll go under. Go with the flow of anxiety and it will subside. Easier said then done I know . The person in the mirror is in a fight and will look like someone in a fight. Do not fight. It won't work.

[masteringmyself]

Hell yeah I feel this

Like I remember what it was like to only have anxiety for stuff like a roller coaster or talking to a crush or something

Now I get anxiety if I eat something I think I'm allergic to or get anxiety if I'm itchy or even breathe air lmao

Kidding but I know what you mean

It will get better for all of us in time

[Justneedpeace in reply to masteringmyself]

Ewww me too!

I thinn allergies and anxiety are connected

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This could have been written by me at this very moment .... are you still on this forum and if so I hope you have made a full recovery