Does anyone else ever get totally overwhelmed by just the concept of living life?

[DemureRose]

I don't know what it is about this whole COVID-19 ordeal, but it has really got me thinking about life and honestly, it's terrifying. I find myself procrastinating on if I will ever be happy with my life, even if I get everything I want; a husband, kids, a good job. What if I end up just living my life day by day until suddenly I'm 50 years old, and regretful of my life? It's terrifying and I get so overwhelmed thinking about it. I can't look ahead and find anything to look forward to, because then I find myself thinking about what comes after that. I want to travel to Europe, well eventually I'll have to come back home and then what? I want to have kids and be a mom, but eventually they'll grow up and move away. What do I do then? Everything I have in my life that I can look forward to, it ends. And that's overwhelming. How am I supposed to live my life when everything I have to look forward, will just end?

And then I think, if I was just in another...world, maybe I could be happy. As silly as it is, I find myself wondering if perhaps I lived in the Harry Potter world (shut up, don't laugh), I could find joy in something each day! How could I be unhappy in a world that is literally magic?! But then, my inner demon comes and destroys this idea as well. Because even witches and wizards meet their end. Even witches and wizards are living their lives just to die. So even my fantasy world is not safe from my own mind.

I just get so panicked and scared when I think about my life ending and me feeling regretful of how it turned out. Has anyone else become consumed by this worry since the whole pandemic thing happened? Or is it just me?

[Agora1]

DemureRose, if you spend your whole life wondering "what comes after that", you won't

have time to enjoy the present moment you are in. Everything in life has a beginning and

an end but that doesn't mean that we can't enjoy the time in the middle. Memories of our

life is what makes it worthwhile. To experience, to learn, to love both the good and the

bad times in our lives. As we mature, we grow spiritually, emotionally and physically.

This is what makes life exciting from day to day. Wondering what each day might bring

and how we can make it the best life possible. And when the day comes that our life is

over, we can have no regrets. Picture life like a baseball game. You hit a home run, first,

second, third base, sliding into home. That's how you want to live your life....going for the

last hurrah right down to the end.

You're young Rose, life holds so much for you. Don't allow it to overwhelm you.

You are here for a reason, at this time, in this place. xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

I ❤️ this Agora. You explained beautifully.

[Marshall64 in reply to Agora1]

Love your reply. I would only change the analogy from baseball to hockey. Scoring the winning goal in the seventh game of the Stanley Cup. Any if anyone gets in your way, you can check them hard into the Dasher boards. 😁

[Agora1 in reply to Marshall64]

You've got it Marshall. The Stanley Cup it is xx

[Starrlight]

DemureRose blessings to you. ❤️