Huge relapse

[Richy626]

Hello all,

My anxiety is really about being afraid of being afraid of things anything you can imagine.

Up until recently I haven't been 2 bad, didn't even realise how good I was doing as I still felt bad pretty much every day.

I had a bad day off from work a couple of weeks ago where I kept getting more and more physically uncomfortable like I was afraid of even just laying on my bed looking at my phone! The more I did it the more physically uncomfortable I felt!

Unfortunately I took this into the workplace with me the next day and I just couldn't calm down, by the end of the day I was physically destroyed, and then it started to effect my sleep so I had bad day after bad day from. Then on!

These last few days work let me swap my days around so. I've had 3 days off in a row.

First 1 I just laid quietly, second one which was yesterday I actually did good I went swimming listened to Claire weeks on acceptance etc and by the end of the day I was very good considering.

But today I am absolutely awful! I went to the hairdressers to get my hair cut and I felt how I have been at work and since that day again, and I've let it get to me ever since then I've believed I'm scared of pretty much everything and that I'm going mad!

Tomorrow. I'm. Back in at work and I'm so worried I won't be able to cope and will. End up. Getting signed off again like I was 2 years ago!

Can somebody offer me some reassurance this evening so I can pull my head out of this awful place I'm. In right now.

The physical sensations get so severe I just keep reacting in constant tension to them and then they get worse so I've spiraled again today.

It's like there's a gap missing in my mind, I get afraid ill be afraid of something, and then when I remember whatever that something was I react in fear I was afraid of that something! It's like the in between point that I was afraid of being afraid of it instead of it doesn't register.

Thanks all.

[Hidden]

Hi, I’ve had downward spirals like this too. It’s a mindset issue. Once your sleep starts to go that when the panic sets in. So, to reverse this, tell yourself that it doesn’t matter how much you sleep that you can function. Also, practice very good sleep hygiene.. take a warm shower or bath before bed, sleep in a very dark room. Look at life as one day at a time and things can change rapidly from day to day. One day can be awful and the next very good, so don’t assume that because today was bad that tomorrow will be worse, that is called “fortune telling” and it’s a form of anxious thinking that is common. There’s a song called Live for Today by by the Grass Roots, it really has that hippy vibe to it of not stressing and panicking about life. I also pray a lot and listen to a good sermon by Charles Stanley before I go to bed. Look at life in the big picture not just your small daily reality. Hope this helps some.

[Richy626 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you yeah I'll try and keep in mind to live one day at a time, because I know I'm. Doing this to myself I sometimes feel like I deserve it when I shouldn't, so I put myself through it more when I shouldn't, I have work in a couple of hours I'll try and stay quiet and relaxed until I have to leave.

[wingsofadove]

"First 1 I just laid quietly, second one which was yesterday I actually did good I went swimming listened to Claire weeks on acceptance etc and by the end of the day I was very good considering."

Would it help you to try reminding yourself that you HAVE felt good at some times, and that although going through hell, you are capable of feeling as good as you did then again? It does help me to think 'I have been like this before (ie; feeling bad) and come through it, and I shall do so again.' Hope it helps. Warm wishes.

[Wendya2j]

Hey, I know you can do this!! I really hope you can actually enjoy the holiday. My tunnel must be close to yours though except I also have a traumatic brain injury which just blows everything out of proportion. Can you think of triggers that made you flip to the other side? Is your family supportive? I feel so bad for you! I know my version of this well and am lying in bed under blankets and with my dog. Hang in there, you can do it!

[Hidden]

Anxiety can feel overwhelming and make you feel a sense of total abandon. Sometimes we can be the boss of it and sometimes we aren't able due to any number of reasons. Don't be hard on yourself. You may need help from a doctor, counseling, diet adjustments, vitamins, or even medication. Everyone's body and hormones are different. Don't give up. Give yourself grace. Keep on your journey.