ok first of all this is my first post on here so I don't really have a clue what I'm doing, but recently I've just constantly been on edge all the time, it's like my mind just won't shut up and I can't relax at all! I constantly go over my own insecurities and stupid little regrets in my mind and I can't focus or sleep.
I'm constantly in fear that others will negatively judge me, and although I am aware that it is impossible to please everyone, and not everyone will like me anyway, I still get anxious every morning deciding what to wear in case people judge me for my choice of top. I try to stay quiet most of the time so no one can judge me or hold me accountable for anything I say, I cross the street when I see people my own age walking towards me as it's intimidating, I once saw my coat that I left in the classroom full of my classmates, but left it there because I would rather have walked home in the freezing cold as opposed to the idea of knocking on the door and walking in front of a small group of people. Phone calls terrify me, and if I'm asked to say or do something in class or something triggers me I can't focus on anything because all I can hear is the fast pounding of my heart in my head and my face going red and my hands trembling, my chest feels dead tight and I feel like I can't breathe and need my inhaler so then the only option I see is to then bail out of whatever situation I'm in that triggered it.
Am I actually going insane?? I feel like maybe I'm over exaggerating about this entire thing and maybe I just need to get over it and shut up as most people probably feel the same way? Or is this not normal and if so how the hell do people get help for this type of thing because its getting harder each month to deal with it and idrk what to do about it anymore.