Stressed with my relationship

[Ashley1489]

I've been in a relationship with my son's father for ten years off and on.... Since I become hit with anxiety so bad I'm dizzy and am scared to do certain things he calls me a liar and that nothing is wrong with me... He belittles me. I already feel like shit I don't need help... I'm tired of being out down everyday but some days are great when we r around each other the minute we are apart he accuses me if cheating because I talk to alot.of people from this site... Simply because they don't judge me and understand it's refreshing. I wish I could be who I use to be and wasn't off balance anxiety through the roof and dizzy everyday but I am and I can't help that... Stress makes it worse and he doesn't get that maybe if he lifted me up instead of breaking me down maybe I would get better..... I always feel like I can't do anything right..... Sorry for the rant y'all... I know I should just walk away for my mental health but I can't bring myself to do it I love him I just wish he would change and respect me

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Hi Ashley1489, your story brings back certain memories for me, this was many years ago, I too couldn't leave because I loved him so much, then one day I decided to love myself more, I left n never looked back, don't sacrifice yourself in order to love someone xxxxx

[nswitos36]

Same to me Ashley every time I get stressed this dizziness increases so bad that I have to use walls to to move around the house during periods I feel like am gonna die this diziness doesn't stop its only increase and decrease and I have kids to look after they need me am always in the house since 2015 till today I always ask myself will this ever gonna stop will I be normal again everytime I try medication I become worse doctors they don't believe me

[ACJ1191]

I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING YOUR GOING THROUGH KNOW ONE CAN FULLY UNDERSTAND WHATS IT LIKE HAVING ANXIETY UNLESS THEY HAVE EXPERIENCE IT SOMETIMES ITS NOT THE CLASSIC SYMPTOMS ANXIETY COME IN DIFFERENT FORMS AT DIFFERENT TIMES AN JUST BECAUSE YOU LOOK WELL DOESNT MEAN YOUR WELL PEOPLE ASSUME JUST BECAUSE ITS A MENTAL PROBLEM AN ITS ALL IN YOUR HEAD THAT ITS JUST SIMPLE TO LET IT GO BUT ITS LIKE TEACHING YOURSELF HOW TO WALK ,TALK OR WRITE NOW IT COME AUTOMATICALLY WITHOUT THINKING THATS HOW ANXIETY IS ONCE WE FEEL CERTAIN SENSATIONS IN OUR BODY WE AUTOMATICALLY GO INTO PANIC MODE AN YOU CANT HELP IT BUT IF SOMEONE IS MAKING YOUR Situation WORSE YOU HAVE TO LEARN TO WALK AWAY BECAUSE FOR SURE LOVE DOES NOT HURT LOVE DOES NOT PUT YOU DOWN AN MAKE YOU FEEL WORSE

[CaptianInsano]

Hey It's hard enough to deal with anxieties that most of us have no tools to deal with. Get rid of stressful people and things in your life. Those are easy to do compared to the fear of fear involved in anxiety and magical thinking. Best of luck CaptainInsano

[Agora1]

Ashley1489, Unfortunately your son's father will never get it. He is who he is. Pretty hard for people to change. This is chipping away at your self esteem. No woman or man should take frequent emotional abuse. It's almost worse than physical abuse because no one else can see the scars and yet they are there deep within you.

You are in a difficult position because he is your son's father and will always be a part of your life because of that. But as others said, you need to take care of you and love yourself so that you will be around for your son. x