Hope you are all ok and getting better each day!!
One thing that I am majority struggling with is long walks. Like a 10-15 minute walk where all you can see is houses and no shops around and no buildings. I feel that these places are so isolated and I do not like them at all. I was with my Mum yesterday and she wanted me to walk with her to the station and I made us wait at the bus stop which was for ages. I felt so dizzy and faint at that bus stop it was unbelievable. I just felt weak and so lonely an afraid and she was on the phone chatting away which made me feel even worse as I felt that I had been tricked into going out and not had any attention paid to me at all. I find that I have become quite reliant on cabs to get around and do not really like walking much.
I prefer to walk in busy places where there are loads of people and shops i.e. shopping centres etc. I like those kinds of places as I can escape into a shop easily if need be haha.
But places that are too rural I dislike a lot.
Sometimes I am ok. I just have on and off days and I feel so moody, helpless and stuck. I just hate that feeling of being all alone, feeling all alone and feeling as though I cannot just feel normal like everyone else.
I mainly stay in doors way too much and I do not really meet up with friends because of this so I feel like my life has started to suck.
I do have quite a few successes to my name and have achieved many great things but it just sucks that I don't go out much and I am constantly criticised for this beyond words.
Pls share your thoughts on what I can do to get out of this rut.