feeling better, feeling worse...

[jaderbug]

hey guys! so it finally feels like i’m on the road to recovery, haven’t hit it yet, but i can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. i ride with my anxiety now, instead of fearing it, but that’s only on my good days.

i’d say about once or twice out of the week i still get a terrible panic attack that puts me thinking i’ll deal with this forever, and i’ll never get better. it’s completely exhausting dealing with those. those are my bad days, and i know i’ll always have those days but it’s very hard to not let it drag me down.

my intrusive thinking has gotten A LOT better. i’ve been able to use rational thinking to diminish irrational thinking, but only sometimes. my most irrational thoughts are stemmed from my health fears and physical sensations. it’s hard for me to believe my physical pains are caused from anxiety, but i seem to be easier to convince than i was before that it IS anxiety.

so i have my good days, and i have my bad. i truly believe klonopin is what’s helping me see the light at the end of the tunnel. when i’m on it, i’m able to realize what physical sensations are anxiety and what is a stomach ulcer pain instead. i’m able to be myself,just without anxiety. i only wanna take these short-term, but it genuinely helps me and i’ve been getting a lot of crap lately from my friends. i’m only 18, and they tell me i’m gonna turn into a drug addict or just insane things which make my anxiety worse. i’m so conflicted because this medication really does help me but i know i’m getting judged for taking it. i’m just lost right now.

[Cares179]

Hi jaderbug!

Don’t you worry about what others say regarding taking medication for your anxiety. First off if they have never experienced it themselves they have no idea what you are going through and secondly if you feel you found something that helps you that’s great! As long as you are taking meds the way they are prescribed then no worries! The goal is getting better and I am glad you are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel!

[Hidden]

Don't listen to people who don't have a clue about anxiety, good for you if the meds are helping that's all that matters. And try some breathing exercises yoga or meditation, try not to fear your anxiety even on your bad days. Best of luck

[yankeesmom]

Hi Jaderbug..

I wouldn't put much into what any of your friends say. They don't know what your going through.. If Klonopin helps you and your taking them as prescribed, that's what counts. Also you have been able to deal with things better which is making you feel better. I wish you the best.

[Hidden]

Do not listen to anyone judging you for taking your meds. If they were experiencing this they would be wanting something to help them too. I’d take a bite of cow poop if it would stop my panic attacks and I don’t give a rats rear what anyone says about it. Let them have a panic attack and then they might understand.

[yankeesmom in reply to Hidden]

You're so right.... I agree and think we all agree .. If we need meds for anxiety and it helps TAKE IT.....I wish you Well..

[Hidden in reply to yankeesmom]

And I very much wish you the same.

[pink83737]

I’m 18 also and take medication for my anxiety! You aren’t alone