Hey this is my second post here.
I'm just hating how I feel at the moment, ever since being on medication I've never been right.
Basically the situation I'm in now is that everything I think, imagine, remember, notice, sense, somehow I've managed to attach physical reactions to.
It started out as constant panic attacks, then I started to go on medication, but now I keep getting head sensations like pins and needles and something digging in to top of head, nausea on and off, constant muscle spasms, some quite severe muscle "explosions" that make ears ring as a result, sensations of raindrops, I'm currently on 20mg of Fluoxetine, I've tried Citalopram at 10mg but made by legs spasm out, I've tried Mirtazapine 15mg and even 30mg for couple of days, but the physical manifestations on it of anxiety included biting sensations round head and even sensations of cobwebs.
Today I woke up and straight away from the start I've had anxiety over ever existing at all, even when I forced myself to spend time with family never felt right, on some level I. Know I'm the one doing this, I'm able to set it off at will. Over anything which doesn't make sense to me.
I'm currently signed off work, I just don't seem to be able to find what I need within me to stay positive and keep going!!
All. I seem to be able to do is watch dvds etc but it's a sad existence and sometimes I'm breaking down into tears because of it, a grown man of 27 years old and I'm like this, and have been for a few months!
This is a cry for help! Is anybody able to give me some sort of reassurance?