Broken hearted

[Hopefortoday]

Hi

I haven't posted in a while as my physical anxiety symptoms are not as bad as they used to be thanks to a good CBT therapist and the DARE book. I am in a two year relationship with the love of my life who is bipolar. I didn't know anything about bipolar before and when we began dating he told me he had it and was managing it. Then he stopped managing by stopping therapy and meds and he became someone I did not like. He is angry moody and gets irritated with people and says crazy things. Its a lot of verbal vomitt, I told him to get on his meds or that I needed to end the relationship so he has for a month and he is little by slow getting back to who I fell in love with. It is just difficult trying to care for him and appease him so he doesn't get mad. He never gets mad towards me, just with noisy tenants, bad drivers, rude people etc. I want him to get well for himself but I know limits to what I can listen to him from him in terms of complaining or lashing out about people etc. I feel like I said all I could say I do love him, he was there for me when my brother passed, job losses etc. he was my biggest cheerleader and I just hope he can get back to normal.

[Jeff1943]

He is very lucky yo have someone like you, I think going back on the meds and your encouragement will get him back on track.

[Trees2357 in reply to Jeff1943]

Me again. I'm feeling worse and can't stop the fear and thoughts. I'm crying. I don't know what to do

[Jeff1943 in reply to Trees2357]

Trees, I do so wish I could help but it is beyond my competence, there is a solution to your problem but only doctirs can help, you must keep on at your doctor until they come up with a medication that frees you from your distress. Although it's only a short term solution a course of 5mg Valium might give you some respite, maybe if you suggested that.

[jessiejakes in reply to Jeff1943]

Hi jeff1943 I think a course of Valium or diazepam will give her the respite she needs.

[Trees2357 in reply to Jeff1943]

I'm on medication and my husband wants me off them. So doctor is trying to wean me. I don't know if that's a good idea.

[Jeff1943 in reply to Trees2357]

What are your husband's medical qualifications? Is he a trained counsellor or psychiatrist? This is a decision for you and your doctor alone. If you haven't tried diazepam ask your doctor for a weeks supply to see if it makes a difference. I suspect it will be helpful and will bring relief.

[Trees2357 in reply to Jeff1943]

I'm already on a benzo. I need a support person. Like someone who can be there for me and help me. It's a little tense at home

[Trees2357 in reply to Jeff1943]

I have a therapy appt tomorrow New therapist but don't know if I will like her I can't seem to find one I can connect with instead of giving me a therapist for what I need they gave me the closest one to my house I need one that's good with the problems I have

[Jeff1943 in reply to Trees2357]

Stay positive, Trees, this new therapist could be the ome.

[Trees2357 in reply to Jeff1943]

I'll try. I'm afraid I'll lose my family. They think meds are making me like this.

[Want2BHappy3]

Sorry to hear what your going through. People on Meds for bipolar, depression etc. stop their Meds when they good and think they can manage things. So wrong on many levels.

You say he hasn't gotten angry with you ? He will trust that...do you want to spend many many years managing and being his Emtional caretaker? You should speak to a specialist on how to get a away from this situation?

You might feel that your abandoning him? Don't feel that way because this could turn dangerous? He'll figure it out, he has up till now right? Good luck

[Hopefortoday]

Thank you ! I made a requirement that he get back on his meds or that’s it. I am prepared to leave if I need to and talk to someone about it. It’s hsrd cuz I love him but hate who he has become and I told him that