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2 months away from home and this site got me feeling out of place now that im back

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I liked the routine at the mental hospital now im finding it really hard to adjust. Being home feels weird. Even coming back to this site is making me feel out of place. Mentally im doing great now, my meds are doing wonders, my GAD and agoraphobia i still struggle with but i have better control.

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Are you on wattpad you look so familiar

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Yea i am

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Omg i love your poems on anxiety and depression i comment but you never answer your followers

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Im sorry, just too many comments sometimes it triggers my anxiety i get overwhelmed

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You should send a message to your followers then they might take it the wrong way. I wish i had that many people on wattpad

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Lol trust me it's not a good thing that's y i have another personal page too many followers get overwhelming and demanding

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You have 334000 following you i got 46 lol

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Lol on my other personal page i only have 26 but i like it better since i know all 26 people personally

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Send me your username I'll follow

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You forreal? I pm you

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Lol i just followed you

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You're the best. Are you going to write poems again

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Im posting one tonight I'll tag you

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Yayyy can't wait

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I just saw your post on here you should tell them about the other places you self harm

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I don't know how i will tell them just some other day orsomething

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Ok no pressure. Remember our families get hurt too not just us. When you cut the physical pain goes both ways

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Trust me i know. 2 suicide attempts now im better. I don't ever want to see that amount of pain on my mother's face again.

Hi my beautiful sunflower 🌻 I hope you are doing well, I've missed you so much 💖 Made my week seeing you here. Don't feel so out of place here... we love you. Big hugs,🌻 & ❣

😙, Mel

MELLLLLLLLLLLLL I MISSED YOU how's everything how's my lil han solo doing

Trying to hang in there.... seeing a therapist in 2 weeks, so hopefully on road to a better place. Han Solo is good.... he's enjoying the early spring we're getting here in CA, it's almost 70 here.😎 I bet your pup is so happy your home🐶. How are you doing? How much 🍫 have you had since being home 😄

Im glad you'll be seeing a therapist. How's work hopefully you're getting help and not being overwhelmed like before. I really don't like your boss. Lol you know i live and breathe chocolate hun lol.... How's your sister btw

😄*HUGS* Work is chill, Halloween is the only time it's super busy.... I'm learning to not let work stress get to me. I am going to take the day I have therapy off. My appt is early morning, but figured I'll need a me day. Treat myself to breakfast & of course a bakery visit☺

My sis is doing good , they bought a house. Her stress level is way down since she doesn't have to live with in-laws.

How are you doing? Are you handling being home okay? You can reach out to me anytime... I'm here for you Sunflower 🌻

Aaaaaah the bakery, get some sweets and treat yourself. Im so happy she's doing better we both knew she needed her privacy plus in-laws can be a handful..... struggling a little to get use to being home again but im taking things slow plus mentally i feel good

Sweet Danielle, adjusting at home is difficult because of the structured environment in the hospital. It's meant for a reason to keep our anxieties low. Now that you are home, don't take on more than you can handle. This is about your life and coping. Learning to say "no" when you feel it's too much for you is going to be a new word in your vocabulary. We are all people pleasers but there comes a time we need to please ourselves first.

I'm so glad you are back. We're here to support you. Sending hugs and smiles xxxxxx :) 's

Im taking it one step at a time hopefully my brain cooperates with its new change

I missed you so much.

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I missed u too btw i decorated the little Christmas tree you sent me its so beautiful

Coming off my Abilify and Gabapentin. I was losing my mind and now being off them. I'm having depersonalization.

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Hi, I was thinking about you earlier today. Now I understand what you were going through. I'm sorry you are having DP hopefully it just a part of the after effects of getting off both drugs. It takes a while for the brain to heal after being on meds that are producing the chemicals we are low on. Now your brain needs to find it's way back in producing the chemicals on it's own. I wish you well in getting back to yourself very soon. Sending healing wishes to you. xx

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I have a question...so your saying that the meds produce the chemicals were low on...but when we come off the meds are you kind of saying that are brains are now producing them on our own? I watched a video of a Doctor who said people that get a diagnosis like GAD will most likely always need meds. But Paxil is horrible. Im a 30 year old male, with a full head of hair until i started paxil. Now my hair is getting patchy every where, not at all male pattern baldness. Now I have to fill out a secondary disability claim with the Veterans Admin! Awesome

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Yes Dennison, I am saying that the brain will repair itself. Depending on the dose and length of time you were on a medication. I was on medication for as long as you are old, 30 years. So for me it took 2 years to wean off safely as well as another year and a half to get where I am today. Whether off or on meds, we still have to work at our emotions everyday. I use Meditation and Deep Breathing several times a day. That is my medication now. My positivity and acceptance of anxiety.

It sounds like the stress of anxiety is causing your hair loss. (not as sure about the medication) but I do know that stress can cause hair to fall out. Bringing you GAD down in using other methods can help immensely. Finding therapy, self hypnosis, visualization, affirmations, anything that your mind and body connect with, will help lower the stress levels and allow your body to help restore itself.

I hope this helps some... :)

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In the beginning of all my mental health problems I only did meditation, deep breathing, affirmations, for three months...and I couldnt shake my problems. So I tried Prozac and that made it worse then I tried Paxil and that worked. But its bad stuff. My hair started falling out of my beard, first a tiny spot, then over a year gradually over my face...then it started small spots on the sides of my head, so weird.....stuff sucks...but I dont have panick attacks daily so I guess ill take it

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Thank you. I've been thinking about you as well. That's exactly what I'm doing, trying to heal. I'm purposely in isolation here at home so there is no overstimulation to my brain so I can focus and stay calm.

Xoxoxo

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Breathe in the peace and calm, exhale the stress. :) xxx

Stay well....

i almost checked myself into the mental hospital, and when I say almost I mean it...had my mother not came to live with me for 6 weeks , and had I not started on Paxil...I undoubtedly would have. I feel like I would have been safe there. My GAD was so bad I thought I was going to get Pshycitsophrenia....I felt like if i was in the mental hospital they would be able to do something for me to stop me from slipping into that Physchitsophrenia diagnosis. Well I never got it but that still hasnt made me stop worring about getting it, or getting Dementia at 28 29 and now 30. WTF? I cant even tell you why, or at least if i did it wouldnt make sense. Actually being in a mental hospital sounds good right now. But I dont think its as peaceful and loving as I imagine it

Its normal to be so worried our GAD tend to make us overthink and overanalyze every single thing which makes our anxiety even worse to handle. Each mental hospital is different i guess, mine was a private one not too many people plus they allowed me to have my dog since it calms me, they understood my agoraphobia and develop a routine and sessions which really helped. If you feel like you can't cope try to see a therapist and go from there. GAD doesn't mean we'll always be on meds, some of us just need professional help till we can function a lil bit more normalm

When I’m feeling good this site can be hard to handle. Seeing all the symptoms can bring it all back. I’ve been taking breaks and just checking in to see how I can help someone else. Do what makes you comfy. Glad to see you on here though. ❤️

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That is exactly what i meant, u put in the right words. I try not to read too many post just in case i cant handle the triggers it might bring

Hello call me Danielle

I hope you are feeling well today

I would like to know what mental hospital you stayed in?

Also what meds did they give or are you taking now?

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