last straw :( please help me

[blue1764]

I have never felt so alone in my whole life. I have been struggling with depression & anxiety for about 3 years now and I have been living in a hell due to derealization since last august. I cannot live like this anymore. I am so lost I feel dead like I disappeared off the face of the earth. I feel empty and cold and my life feels meaningless. My parents don't get what it feels like to have derealization and im tired of explaining with no results. ive had therapist after therapist, taken medication after medication, ive cut, ive done everything. My derealization is so bad sometimes ill even forget im living and then it hits me and im like wtf.... its the scariest thing. Nothing makes me even a little bit happy. Im tired of life and everything. Someone please give some word of advice or anything please im really on my last straw ive never felt so hopeless I just want to be happy

[Pontiac1979]

One. Of the problems is listen to yourself and no one else you can fix this if y o u want to

[izzy01]

Hello I just want to tell you to be strong and keep your head up I know it’s weird and not normal all this stuff that we all go thru and people that have never experienced it will never understand, just don’t give up and don’t stop asking for help! How long were you on medication for? Did it help at all? I been on Zoloft for 1 year and it’s been ok I don’t feel 100% better but it’s helped, what keeps me going is prayer faith in the Lord I don’t know if your a believer but its something that helps me in my time of trouble you might feel alone like no one cares but God does just seek him! God Bless and don’t hesitate to contact me for just a chat or whatever your not alone!! There is hope

[blue1764 in reply to izzy01]

Yes I am a strong believer I was on Zoloft as well for about 6 months and it didn't do much for me sadly. Church is the only place I truly feel like myself Im glad I have the Lord to comfort me through this. thank you !

[Ell64]

Try to remember you are not alone, as you can see by the posts in this forum. It can be horrible living inside your own head. Do the deep breathing through your nose slowly,hold it and then exhale through your nose slowly. If you haven't tried yoga, you might consider giving that a try. It helped/helps me immensely.

[worrierintowarrior]

I was just like you in the beginning of dealing with derealization . Keep busy , stay active , most importantly look for God .